Where do I begin????? I am currently 16 - nearly 17 weeks pregnant. I went to my midwife nearly 6 weeks ago, bloods taken, blood pressure done etc and she was a bit concerned with my blood pressure so advised I went to see my doctor. I did the next day, who asked for a water sample. I obliged and she was concerned as there was high levels of sugar (despite fasting), so wanted a HBA1C test done. Had bloods taken, then after the weekend received an urgent call requesting I come in. She then told me I had diabetes and my HBA1C was 105. Was told recommended is about 50 and women wanting to become pregnant are often advised to get this even lower to about 40. She told me as the number is very high it's likely I've had it for years and not known. Also they can't tell at the moment if it's Type 1 or 2, because I'm pregnant (probably T2 though), but will try and diagnose after I've had the baby. Since then I was referred to the diabetic clinic at the antenatel department. Firstly I was told to test my BG for a week and come back. After a couple of days my figures seemed high (was told to ring if this was the case), so I rang and they put me on Metformin. Used metformin for a week, but figures still remained fairly high so was put onto Insulin (Levirmir, twice a day and Novarapid, with meals). I did this for a week and they seemed pleased. Numbers had dropped quite a bit, so stated I could go away for 3 weeks, continue what I was doing and then they will see how I am. Also at this time I was told instead of testing my BG 7 times a day, just do it before meals and at bedtime, so roughly just 4 times a day. This relieved me as I struggle so much getting blood from my fingers. Anyway I went back last week. Generally they seem happy with my figures, although sometimes they have gone low 3.1 etc and sometimes too high 7.1 isn. I therefore thought they would say that yes on average everything seems to be ok. The nurse told me last week to starting testing an hour after I eat to help my figures to not go too low or too high. This has now depressed me. I know it's the good thing to do, but now seriously depressed. Sometimes there seems to be no reason why my numbers go so high. The other morning I had 1 slice of brown bread, 2 friend eggs and 2 slices of ham for breakfast and figure 8.0 afterwards. I've been told it should really be <7.8 after meals so not far off, but still a bit on the high side. My husband tells me not to worry as it's not far off, but I can't help it. After a couple of days I was thinking maybe it's the bread my blood sugars can't deal with, so today, before breakfast 3.9 (low and not really sure why), so had 1 slice of seeded bread, and 1 unit of insulin (generally I have 1 unit for 10g carbs, however if a meal is 40g = 3, 60g = 5 etc, I was finding if I had 40g = 4 I was then having hypos). An hour after breakfast it was 4.1. I'm guessing as my fasting level was low I possibly could have had the toast and no insulin. Anyway I did then have a mini mini flake mid morning (I know I shouldn't but had the dentist and felt like I just needed something). Came back had a bit of a walk and before lunch it was 4.1, so again I thought well it's a bit low (I've been told <5.5 before meals), but ok. I had 2 slices of seeded bread, ham and cheese, some cheese thins that I made and a Weight Watches yoghurt and then an hour later, my level was 8.8 I really am sorry I am just waffling on. I am still getting used to things and tomorrow I will still have toast and then a sandwich to see if I can confirm it's the bread I'm having so to know in future not to have it. The hospital is telling me I'm doing well, having only just found out, being pregnant and already adapting to taking insulin, but I feel like a failure. I've always wondered what my HBA1C was, as like on here I've seen people put a %. So I've just converted my figure and it was 11. something %. That's made me cry even more. I think I'm more depressed with it as I'm pregnant and worried what damage I've already done to my baby. If it was just me, then yes damaged my own health, so now strive to correct it, but I've got a baby inside me so I need to do it to help both of us. I think my husband and my mum (type 2 diabetic) are sick of me just crying to them all the time, but I just don't know what to do. I want chocolate, snuggle up with my hot water bottle and for me to have had the baby and everything be alright. I know being diagnosed early is better than late, so I can try and limit what damage is done, but I'm still depressed about it all. This forum has been a great find and I've just been reading post after post all day. Like I said before sorry for ranting but just feel I finally need to just vent and sorry for such a long post.