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paula.nolan42
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I've only been diagnosed T2 since the end of November and I've only been monitoring my BGs for a week. In the mornings I'm always 7 something. So I'm already starting out high. From the moment of my diagnosis I cut out everything, smoking, coffee (with sugar) all cakes, biscuits, treats, chocolate crisps, bread, crackers, peanut butter. All gone. I drink tea, I hate it. I don't drink coffee with out sugar and sweeteners are yucky. All my portion are tiny compared to before. Everything gets weighed, everything gets logged. Yet it would seem I'm still eating too much, I look at the "what people are eating" forum and I wonder how 1 coffee can be considered breakfast. How can they eat so little. I have drastically reduced my food intake. And while I'm not officially LCHF I do think I've reduced hugely. But now it seems more and more things are on my 'banned' list. And I have no idea what to replace things with. As a type this I'm in Cafe Nero having yucky tea and desperately ignoring all the yummy food thing I want to scoff. I feel hot tears behind my eyes, ready to cry, ready to make me look like a fat fool. I've lost nearly 10kg since November. My HbA1c has reduced a lot. Up until this morning I thought I was doing ok, not great, just ok. But how am I supposed to keep this reduction going for the rest of my life?? How am I supposed to have a balanced intake of food when it seems that I'm still having too much of what little I'm eating. Im supposed to be at Pilates. But I can't be ***** right now. I don't have anyone to talk to about this and it would seem that when I do say anything I'm offending someone or I get upset and defensive. Food is everywhere and I can't eat any of it.