Hi all,
i am a new to diabetes no one in my family has it. I went in for a routine day surgery and ended up in hospital for 3 1/2 weeks, i was very ill after my operation and my parents were called into the hospital in the early hours, they were told i was in DKA my BG was 33 and ketones whatever that means.
I was on iv insulin straight away right up until the day i left hospital then i was taught to inject myself. At first things were going ok and i dont think i thought about being diabetic a great deal as i was still very ill when i came out of hospital and i had to go my gp every day to have an injection from the nurse as i had a blood clot on my lung,so i was being pretty good with my injections and eating and dont think it had registered properly.
Now i am back at work i just can not cope at all, i have never been a big eater and i feel i have to eat all the time and think about food all the time, some days i dont take any lantus or novorapid because i dont want to have a hypo and figured if i didnt take it i wouldnt go low.
To me i dont think i am diabetic at all most days my BG levels are fine well i think they are fine the highest they have gone since being out of hospital was 10.2.
i am on small amounts of insulin i take 4u lantus and i am 1u:10g carbs novorapid which makes me think am i.
i have no idea who to talk about how i am feeling, because my doctor will just say i am depressed and give me prozac which is all she does, and yeah i am depressed but i dont think more meds are going to help how i am feeling.
I dont want to get ill from going high but i also am so scared of going low, i just do not know what to do, i find myself crying all the time i am so angry with everyone and no one seems to understand how i feel and if i get snappy and angry all they say is have u checked ur levels and that winds me up even more. I really do not know how much longer i can carry on like this, if i am truely diabetic i understand that it will be with me for life it will never go away but i just dont think i can accept that and i dont see how i can have a future feeling like this i am so scared of what may happen.
thanks for reading my rant, i hope those who read it understand what i mean.
i am a new to diabetes no one in my family has it. I went in for a routine day surgery and ended up in hospital for 3 1/2 weeks, i was very ill after my operation and my parents were called into the hospital in the early hours, they were told i was in DKA my BG was 33 and ketones whatever that means.
I was on iv insulin straight away right up until the day i left hospital then i was taught to inject myself. At first things were going ok and i dont think i thought about being diabetic a great deal as i was still very ill when i came out of hospital and i had to go my gp every day to have an injection from the nurse as i had a blood clot on my lung,so i was being pretty good with my injections and eating and dont think it had registered properly.
Now i am back at work i just can not cope at all, i have never been a big eater and i feel i have to eat all the time and think about food all the time, some days i dont take any lantus or novorapid because i dont want to have a hypo and figured if i didnt take it i wouldnt go low.
To me i dont think i am diabetic at all most days my BG levels are fine well i think they are fine the highest they have gone since being out of hospital was 10.2.
i am on small amounts of insulin i take 4u lantus and i am 1u:10g carbs novorapid which makes me think am i.
i have no idea who to talk about how i am feeling, because my doctor will just say i am depressed and give me prozac which is all she does, and yeah i am depressed but i dont think more meds are going to help how i am feeling.
I dont want to get ill from going high but i also am so scared of going low, i just do not know what to do, i find myself crying all the time i am so angry with everyone and no one seems to understand how i feel and if i get snappy and angry all they say is have u checked ur levels and that winds me up even more. I really do not know how much longer i can carry on like this, if i am truely diabetic i understand that it will be with me for life it will never go away but i just dont think i can accept that and i dont see how i can have a future feeling like this i am so scared of what may happen.
thanks for reading my rant, i hope those who read it understand what i mean.