I am having real problems to come to terms with pre-diabetes likely to be confirmed Type 2. I had such a hell of a year last year. Mum in later stages of Alzheimer's finally put into a home, Dad had a stroke in the middle of moving house which I had to complete on his behalf in 3 days whilst going back and forth to hospital. Then I was told that my gynaecological problems would require a total abdominal hysterectomy. Out of the blue my brother nearly died from a rare brain abscess. He survived and has made a good recovery. Had my surgery in November and was off work for 13 weeks. It was a massive op with a blood transfusion , was under for 6 hours and had to have a urological procedure too. During my recovery period a routine set of bloods revealed Hba1c level of 56 and subsequent fasting glucose below diabetes threshold but prediabetes. I've had less than sympathetic treatment from my employer during my absence and phased return and now this. I've just had enough!
Had my glucose intolerance test this week and I'm expecting a T2 diagnosis. Coming to terms initially with diet and exercise hasn't been too bad. It was all part of my game plan to work on my fitness and diet once I'd recovered from my hysterectomy. What is worrying me is the longer term effects. I love cooking. I have a nine year old I like to cook with. How will Xmas be? I feel terrible resentment that I can't have what I like. Every time I put food in my mouth I'm tormented by the thoughts of diabetes. I'm already on anti-depressants - prescribed during my family crisis last year. I was supposed to be weening off them but fear that may make me feel worse. I go from being miserable to raging anger and utter despair.
Work are being extremely tricky about anymore time off - I'm terrified to even attend an appointment in work hours and I just can't get them out of hours or in school holidays all the time.
Where do I go from here?