THANKS EVERYONE FOR REPLIES
AS REGARDS MY DIABETES, HAVE TRIED EVERTHIG TO GET HYPO AWARENESS BACK NO JOY, UNFORTUNATELY, have been told due to time of having diabetes this can happen, tried running blood sugars high etc no joy and reason why have severe neuropathy is because never been able to get control, since 1968, when was 9.
Consultants have run tests etc and say its because way my body responds, they really tried everything, inc. 3 weeks in hospital trying to level me no joy, collapsed whilst on ward!!!! had this all my life, now on omnipod pump, better control, but still get hypos!!!!!!
These ESA rules, ATOS and the whole system is a joke, what annoys me is that in past have had to lie to go to work, becoz of diabetes since age of 15 in 1975 when started work, and about just over a year ago, was hit WHAM!!!!!! by all these complications, like what seemed just over night.
Feel like I have to beg to these people, to get any financial help, by people who have worked only a fraction of the time that I have worked, the way I feel coz of depression feel not long for this world anyway and I dont suffer fools gladly, and why shud I listen to them when they dont listen to what Im saying, I have brought up family all doing well in work etc,been with wife 25 years and she has had to put up with a lot with my health, never asked for anything and never got anything, now need help they begrudging giv it only when you fight.
I HATE THE HUMAN RACE AND IM PART OF IT!!!!!! this is why I also have become less willing to interact with people, no patience with people at all, if they are civil and listen, have no problem, may be its down to my mentle health causing this, so need this pressure etc like hole in head.
I dont want the extra money from em, dont want the years back dated money from em coz only goes on council tax and rent whatever extra we get, just wish they would leave me alone in peace, prob. same as other people coz got enuff probs dealing with health conditions, and trying to come to terms with even more limitations than had before, which is what my psycotherapist has stated.
Im 52 this August, and feel that Im finished and gone past my sell by date, even Docs. look at me like what are you still doing here, how come youved survived so long!!!!!! Wish I hadnt !!!! didnt think would live past 32, then hit 40 thort really am on borrowed time and then hit 50 and thort WOW, then hist 51 and BLAM!!!!! got hit by everything, continuous pain in feet and hands at times can hardly walk, and have prob. with hands gripping etc, just been told nothing they can do by hand specialist, foot specialist etc, USED TO BE SO ACTIVE WINDSURFING FOR 27 YEARS WINTER AND SUMMER HIGH PERF. BOARD FORCE 4, 5,6 WINDS, NOW HAVE TROUBLE ZIPPING JACKET UP!!!!! STOP THE WORLD I WANT TO GET OFF!!!!!!!
STEVE
AS REGARDS MY DIABETES, HAVE TRIED EVERTHIG TO GET HYPO AWARENESS BACK NO JOY, UNFORTUNATELY, have been told due to time of having diabetes this can happen, tried running blood sugars high etc no joy and reason why have severe neuropathy is because never been able to get control, since 1968, when was 9.
Consultants have run tests etc and say its because way my body responds, they really tried everything, inc. 3 weeks in hospital trying to level me no joy, collapsed whilst on ward!!!! had this all my life, now on omnipod pump, better control, but still get hypos!!!!!!
These ESA rules, ATOS and the whole system is a joke, what annoys me is that in past have had to lie to go to work, becoz of diabetes since age of 15 in 1975 when started work, and about just over a year ago, was hit WHAM!!!!!! by all these complications, like what seemed just over night.
Feel like I have to beg to these people, to get any financial help, by people who have worked only a fraction of the time that I have worked, the way I feel coz of depression feel not long for this world anyway and I dont suffer fools gladly, and why shud I listen to them when they dont listen to what Im saying, I have brought up family all doing well in work etc,been with wife 25 years and she has had to put up with a lot with my health, never asked for anything and never got anything, now need help they begrudging giv it only when you fight.
I HATE THE HUMAN RACE AND IM PART OF IT!!!!!! this is why I also have become less willing to interact with people, no patience with people at all, if they are civil and listen, have no problem, may be its down to my mentle health causing this, so need this pressure etc like hole in head.
I dont want the extra money from em, dont want the years back dated money from em coz only goes on council tax and rent whatever extra we get, just wish they would leave me alone in peace, prob. same as other people coz got enuff probs dealing with health conditions, and trying to come to terms with even more limitations than had before, which is what my psycotherapist has stated.
Im 52 this August, and feel that Im finished and gone past my sell by date, even Docs. look at me like what are you still doing here, how come youved survived so long!!!!!! Wish I hadnt !!!! didnt think would live past 32, then hit 40 thort really am on borrowed time and then hit 50 and thort WOW, then hist 51 and BLAM!!!!! got hit by everything, continuous pain in feet and hands at times can hardly walk, and have prob. with hands gripping etc, just been told nothing they can do by hand specialist, foot specialist etc, USED TO BE SO ACTIVE WINDSURFING FOR 27 YEARS WINTER AND SUMMER HIGH PERF. BOARD FORCE 4, 5,6 WINDS, NOW HAVE TROUBLE ZIPPING JACKET UP!!!!! STOP THE WORLD I WANT TO GET OFF!!!!!!!
STEVE
