I came across a statement I made a few years ago about having diabetes:
"I have diabetes. It doesn't necessarily define me as a person, just negates me putting too much away for my retirement. It has though put a little person in my head that stops me living life with the gay abandon of a 'normal' person".
Now this got me thinking, with some of the recent posts on here about diabetes causing rage or anger, are our minds now set up a little differently from everybody else?
When it comes down to it the majority of us will have to start and end the day in the same manner, testing our sugars, our first and last thought of the day. We don't leave the house without packing some kit and our thoughts centre around the forthcoming meals...
But where am I going with this? Well it's that nagging voice in my head... "check your sugars, 8.2 that's a bit high, 10 units, did you change the needle, remember your monitor, you've a meeting at lunch, remeber to check it's diet, you can't have that".
It never shuts up!
Worse still when my sugars are low. Who else gets someone psycho-analysing them followed by intense calm, confusion then self loathing? I start by a kind of outer body thing, then am almost talking to myself, almost trying to coach myself through. Thereare also times when the whole paranoia thing kicks in, "tthey're looking at you weird, no they aren't,maybe you do look weird, I'm ok, stop talking to yourself, shut up..."
Is anyone with me or am I psychotic?
"I have diabetes. It doesn't necessarily define me as a person, just negates me putting too much away for my retirement. It has though put a little person in my head that stops me living life with the gay abandon of a 'normal' person".
Now this got me thinking, with some of the recent posts on here about diabetes causing rage or anger, are our minds now set up a little differently from everybody else?
When it comes down to it the majority of us will have to start and end the day in the same manner, testing our sugars, our first and last thought of the day. We don't leave the house without packing some kit and our thoughts centre around the forthcoming meals...
But where am I going with this? Well it's that nagging voice in my head... "check your sugars, 8.2 that's a bit high, 10 units, did you change the needle, remember your monitor, you've a meeting at lunch, remeber to check it's diet, you can't have that".
It never shuts up!
Worse still when my sugars are low. Who else gets someone psycho-analysing them followed by intense calm, confusion then self loathing? I start by a kind of outer body thing, then am almost talking to myself, almost trying to coach myself through. Thereare also times when the whole paranoia thing kicks in, "tthey're looking at you weird, no they aren't,maybe you do look weird, I'm ok, stop talking to yourself, shut up..."
Is anyone with me or am I psychotic?
