Hi all.
I'm after some advice. I have had diabetes since the age of 12 and have never come to terms with the condition. I have have first stages of blindness (probably 2nd stages by now) In 2006/2007 I have a very bad mental health episode. Where I got diagnosed with depression and have been on various medication for depression. Although none of these have really helped. Between 2013 and now I've had yet another mental health breakdown. This time they have diagnosed me with BPD (Borderline Personality Disorder)
For anyone who doesn't know what this is. Basically, I don't deal with stress very well at all. It is virtually impossible for me to control my own emotions. I'm constantly fighting my own thoughts, and don't think I'm good enough for anything. Self harm and a number of attempted suicides. (This is only half of the story)
My consultant is a nasty person and didn't give a **** when I had "depression" I think he is one of these that think mental health is all made up. On my last visit to him. I wanted to commit suicide in that very building.
Basically when I had "depression" I stated that I would not be able to put my mind to my diabetes until my personal life was looked into and fixed. Although, now I have found out it is a personality disorder.
I'm just wondering if anyone has BPD and Type 1 diabetes, and how do you find managing your diabetes with this condition? As I said (above) I'm constantly on a fighting battle with myself and hate everything. People with BPD are well known for Drink/Drug abuse as well as crime, reckless driving, binge eating and other things.
The alcohol and binge eating I can confirm. I admit I drink a fair bit because it is an escape route. I've also noticed something else. I eat and drink a lot of sugary products (as if I wasn't diabetic) I have come to conclusion that because I have such a s*** life. I'm doing whatever I can to get that "happy fix" shall we call it? Well I'm guessing why my diabetes is always unstable (amongst other reasons) I'm using sugary drinks/sweets as fix due to the sugar and "nice taste" which is giving my mood a boost.
my plan was to try and get my back on track and sort my diabetes. Although now I have this stupid disorder and have found out that I cannot control my mood/emotions. This is going to be rather difficult/impossible. Also due to this disorder, you can get very stressed/emotional on the slightest thing. This alone will not be much good for my sugars surely?
I know already I'm basically saying to myself that I'm f*****. I'm just hoping someone can shed light/ give me hope?
I'm after some advice. I have had diabetes since the age of 12 and have never come to terms with the condition. I have have first stages of blindness (probably 2nd stages by now) In 2006/2007 I have a very bad mental health episode. Where I got diagnosed with depression and have been on various medication for depression. Although none of these have really helped. Between 2013 and now I've had yet another mental health breakdown. This time they have diagnosed me with BPD (Borderline Personality Disorder)
For anyone who doesn't know what this is. Basically, I don't deal with stress very well at all. It is virtually impossible for me to control my own emotions. I'm constantly fighting my own thoughts, and don't think I'm good enough for anything. Self harm and a number of attempted suicides. (This is only half of the story)
My consultant is a nasty person and didn't give a **** when I had "depression" I think he is one of these that think mental health is all made up. On my last visit to him. I wanted to commit suicide in that very building.
Basically when I had "depression" I stated that I would not be able to put my mind to my diabetes until my personal life was looked into and fixed. Although, now I have found out it is a personality disorder.
I'm just wondering if anyone has BPD and Type 1 diabetes, and how do you find managing your diabetes with this condition? As I said (above) I'm constantly on a fighting battle with myself and hate everything. People with BPD are well known for Drink/Drug abuse as well as crime, reckless driving, binge eating and other things.
The alcohol and binge eating I can confirm. I admit I drink a fair bit because it is an escape route. I've also noticed something else. I eat and drink a lot of sugary products (as if I wasn't diabetic) I have come to conclusion that because I have such a s*** life. I'm doing whatever I can to get that "happy fix" shall we call it? Well I'm guessing why my diabetes is always unstable (amongst other reasons) I'm using sugary drinks/sweets as fix due to the sugar and "nice taste" which is giving my mood a boost.
my plan was to try and get my back on track and sort my diabetes. Although now I have this stupid disorder and have found out that I cannot control my mood/emotions. This is going to be rather difficult/impossible. Also due to this disorder, you can get very stressed/emotional on the slightest thing. This alone will not be much good for my sugars surely?
I know already I'm basically saying to myself that I'm f*****. I'm just hoping someone can shed light/ give me hope?