i'm a mother of four and i've had diabetes for almost 10 years now and i am only 38. I find that lately i have uncontrolled emotions, extreme reactions (specially to my eldest daughter) and i say a lot of hurtful words. i am taking insulin but my fasting blood sugar has been 200-300 and i have not even bothered to check what my 2 hour tests are. i have a lot of skin allergies and most of the time i feel so depressed and unable to cope specially with the thought of leaving my four young kids (ages 3-9) at a very early age. i know i have taken out my anger at my husband whom i feel don't try to understand or help me at all. i don't know what to do, i'm so scared not for myself but for my children. i feel that i am slipping away as a mother, as a wife, as a daughter... and the only relationship i am good at now is being an employer as i don't feel any anger at my employees as to being where i am right now. i need help and i need advise. am i the only one caught in this emotional turmoil brought on by this disease? please advise me.