@Ushthetaff I worked with big machines at the port here some time back, was not the worst job, but the hours were crazy and the environment not great. I have never really had a stable job though as I have never had a job that actually covered my expenses and didn't make me sick. It is interesting how we adapt to fill the time we have, I was reading about it the other day - how most people tend to get everything they need (and want) to get done done, even when their schedule is full. @Andydragon Thanks, the most career support I have had was a counsellor who encouraged me to do the cakes. My partner encourages me to get into tech, but because it is his thing I get quite apprehensive/feel especially useless at it. I don't really know how to get more help where I am (in South Africa), I am trying to get my diabetes under better control as my energy is so wavering at the moment I don't think I would be useful for much. Aside from that, my biggest concerns are having the flexibility to actually take care of myself and my furchild, who is my world and also a chronic case. @becca59 I can't even imagine being that busy now although it would be nice! That is another of my issues, that I do not have any support or community that I belong to, which doesn't help mentally. I think I have had mental issues long before, the diabetes has just been a cherry on top. I have been trying to get help for ages, I was seeing one counsellor a while back, I thought it was helping but it turned out to be quite damaging. I am stuck now with not being able to afford help - I need a job first! I have been trying every free self help course and guide I can find, it helps a little but then something always knocks me down.