Yes it must be so hard for you. My health problems didn't real hit me until I was 50, so I have been extremely lucky. Every time I went to a GP, nurse or consultant about my AF I always said it caused me to feel awful and I was extremely breathless. They usually nodded and wrote it down without further comment. No-one ever told me that they weren't symptoms of AF!
I was at the point when I wanted it to stop too, maybe not when I had the cardio versions, but definitely when I had the ablation. This isn't altogether a bad thing because it will get you through whatever procedures you need, because you know, like I did that you can't put up with this, so you have to have something done about it. I found it really hard because no-one else really understood how I felt. I probably didn't look that ill, so people may have thought I was lazy (I'm very fat too, so I felt people thought I had brought it on myself) The staff in both hospitals were brilliant and respectful of me. The only complaint I have was.....the food, but that's pretty normal!
It's hard but try to stay positive. Keep in touch because I'll be thinking of you. I know that it's horrid counting the weeks and days waiting for something to happen.
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