Update...actually I have two updates.
1. I got an appointment this morning for more laser in 2 weeks, this was made last Friday (after I'd raised the concern that I'd be waiting for six weeks) so I think someone at the hospital had realised they'd made a mistake, and booked me in. Would have been nice if they'd told me and saved me from worrying all weekend but hey ho.
2. I saw the private consultant again and his take on things was MUCH more positive. It was definitely worth paying the money to see him and ask as many questions as I wanted. He thinks the retinopathy is treatable, and not as bad as the other consultant made out. He doesn't think I'm in danger of losing my sight, if I have the treatment. I may need a good few sessions of laser, especially on my left eye, but he thinks this will sort it, and if I keep my bg's controlled no reason why I can't go on to have a baby once it's stabilised. He said he would have recommended not to wait 6 weeks for more laser if I hadn't got the appointment through today, but as I have then it's ok.
After seeing the private consultant I am very relieved - things are definitely not as bad as I thought! I don't know why the NHS consultant panicked me so much, certainly the fact that you don't have time for them to explain things properly doesn't help. So she dropped in words like 'florid' and 'high risk' which I may have jumped to conclusions on, eg high risk just means the retinopathy needs to be treated as it is becoming sight threatening NOT that I am at high risk of going blind in the near future!
Florid means there are lots of new vessels - but again, nothing they can't treat in the majority of cases.
It was definitely worth the money to see the private doctor, so in a way it's good that I didn't get the 2nd laser appointment last week as otherwise I wouldn't have seen him, and would have been fretting a lot more. I'll remember next time I see the NHS consultant that she perhaps isn't the best at seeing things in a positive light /reassuring the patient.
Its reassuring the doctor today said that if I keep my blood sugar controlled from now on the retinopathy has every chance of not returning, post laser. I am now on a mission to slay this beast! I've had a horrible, panicky week - but things are finally looking up a little.