Blood sugar levels

Hi another question
After my poorly stint and blood sugars around 8.8 I am back to normal for me this is anything between 4.2 pre meal and 7 post meal, but I feel I’m becoming a bit obsessed with my numbers, my pre meal will be 5.5 and my post meal 6.6 and I feel disappointed because it’s not back in the 5s is this normal? I’m newly diagnosed so I know this will probably calm down I just worry if I drift out of the 5 range. I even get worried in the low 4s. I worry I’m being a bit obsessed with numbers ( well my family are ) but I assumed it was all about achieving the lower numbers or am I wrong.

Thank you, I think it’s a huge learning curve, tonight I was slightly high for me at 6.6 and it was from green beans of all things, it was the only new thing I added to that meal. I will keep at what I’m doing, I cringe to think at what my blood sugars would have been before I was diagnosed with all the carbs I ate. It was actually half a white bread roll that spiked me to 14 and a random check on a friends monitor that got me off to the drs, so I dread to think what my usual meals would have done, I was on slimming world so it was pasta rice and potatoes as a staple for every meal.