I am sssssooooooooo much a Ssssssssnake. And a Cancerian Water Snake at that. Family comes first, love them to bits but I do expect them to be quiet, my nervous system can't stand noise or rowdiness and I do need to tuck myself away and coil myself up, especially after eating because my digestion is sssssooooo ssssssssloooooow!
At work, I like everything in it's place and in order so I can put my hand right on what I want, when it's wanted. I'm efficient, conscientious and I love the feeling of being productive and useful.
I'm generous and kind but if I'm stabbed in the back, nope I don't forgive and I will wish everything back to that person. I've tried the forgiveness thing, but I just feel some things should not be forgiven. OK someone clumsily stands on my foot, I wouldn't take it to heart and I wouldn't bear a grudge. But someone deliberately hurts me or my family and it's unforgivable. They can be as sorry as they like, it won't be forgiven. I won't brood on it, but I won't forget it. I'll learn from it. It doesn't come naturally for me to retaliate though, I have a very deep conscience when it comes to my own actions. I won't take action but I will wish that person is repaid somehow. That also goes for kindnesses. I never ever forget a kindness. Ever.
Tell me to my face by all means, but don't throw knives at my back, because I FEEL them and I KNOW who threw them. I'm ultra sensitive to the point of clairvoyance and clairsentience at times and I've frightened away many a future husband by reading his mind and knowing his real motives before he knows them himself! I've been sensitive to the point of feeling other people's pain and having my skin hurt because it felt like my nerves had no protection and were constantly being stimulated by external events, noise, loud colours, scents, vibrations etc. Between being a cross between being a Snake and a Crab I guess I need that shell to protect me.
That's why I need my time and space away from the madding crowd. I can only take so many people for so long because I absorb a lot of information from the ether and can get easily overwhelmed. That's why I need plenty of sleep and time to think my own thoughts and dream my own dreams.
I understand how vibrations in the form of words and sounds can be soothing or harmful to the human nervous system and that's why I don't like gossip. It's harmful. We really don't just hear with our ears, we 'hear' by sensing vibrations throughout our whole body and I've been known to 'hear' one thing from someone else with my ears whilst 'hearing' something totally different from the vibrations they were emitting. And when the two don't add up, I always go with the vibrations rather than the words. Words were invented for some people to use 'creatively' instead of 'honestly'.