Hi Vez,
I'm a three year veteran to. I'm not really in denial, but I am quite rebellious sometimes. Just had my annual review at the beginning of the month with the diabetic nurse. I pleaded to with her not to send me to see the doctor as my results were 78 again! The last time round I got a blasting from the doctor, who told me I had poor control.
So this time I really do have to try hard to get back on track. Hence this is why I have joined this forum.
The problem I have is that I am a nighttime truck driver, and when I start to feel tired I immediately dive for the services. And apart from may be a bottle of water is nothing in the services that is Diabetic friendly.(Having already eaten all my lunch box).
I have been doing not too bad over the last couple of weeks, as I have been using the My Net Diary Diabetic app on the iPhone. This has helped quite a lot by keeping me reasonably disciplined.
It is **** hard sometimes, as last night I tested and was within normal limits for once, having mostly been in the high teens. I felt so good about the achievement, but then came home and gorged chocolate and crisps in front of the TV with no remorse whatsoever.
A mate of mine was diagnosed about a year after me. And he says he has the same problems, trying to avoid the nasty stuff.
I live in Cwmbran, so am wondering if we both had the same lack of advice when being diagnosed. I have learnt more about diabetes in the last two weeks using the app and being on this forum, than I have learnt in the last three years of diagnosis.
Cheers,
Smudge.