feeling really bad.

Deepest Sympathy on your sad loss.

Hi Kazza

I dont think it is any surprise that you are all to pot where your diabetes is concerned, only a very short time since you lost your partner, that would be more than enough to raise your bg and of cousre you would be forgetful and confused, hell I know if my husband died I would be all over the place. I am surprised that you are back at work already, do you have bereavement counselling, do you have supportive friends and family? You are still reeling from your bereavement, no wonder it is all confusing, and I suspect that it is not just your diabetes that is causing this tiredness, though of course high bg levels dont help.
What are your readings like at the moment, when do you get your test results back from your doctor? What do you eat? Set yourself reminders so that you dont forget to take your medication, even if it means setting alarm clocks or something to remind you.
And be good to yourself, if you feel you need to sleep then go and have a nap, its important that you talk about your problems, your worries and thoughts.

Kind regards

Karen

You sound as if you are almost falling apart. Grief can do this.

With the help of a friend you need to write a list of what self care and essential household things you need to do every day. You then need to tick them off every day as you go along.

Get up
Take metformin x one tab
Eat breakfast
Clean teeth
Shower etc

You are not going to feel good. You are not going to enjoy anything. You do have to get through each day. After about six months it will be a bit easier but the hole in your heart will still be there.

Have you a friend you can talk to?

Hi Kazza,
I feel for you I had the same thing happen to me my Wife of 42 years sadly passed away in september 07 less than 5 weeks after losing my dad, I spent the first 2 months not sleeping more than a couple of hours a night, missing meals and feeling totally depressed I'm sure this brought my diabetes on ( diagnosed april 08 T2 ) I'm not overweight no family history.If the stress and depression did this to me, as a diabetic it must be playing havoc with your BS levels.Believe me it does get better with the help of family and friends and a very understanding G P, a counsellor who helped me get through the first few months. I am slowly coming to terms with being on my own. I still have some bad times but they are getting less frequent my wife always said that I must move on if anthing happened to her, its a slow process but with proper help you can do it.A good counsellor is a must, I cried most times I saw her but its good to cry dont hold back, like me you will always have your memories cherish those and I know its hard but try to move on.If I can be of any help or if you need to talk dont hesitate to PM me.

Graham