Hi Ally,
I'm with you hun and understand exactly what it making this so hard for you.
I, too, suffer with depression and anxiety. I also use food as a form of comfort.
I'm over weight and trying to loose weight now, plus get my BG levels stable.
If we use food as a comfort it kind of becomes a "medication" I know that if I'm feeling really down or sad, if I eat something naughty which inevitably would contain loads of carbs, it makes me feel temporarily good, happy and satisfied. But the key word here is "temporarily" I only feel "happy" whilst I'm eating it.
Then will come the carb overdose symptoms, tiredness, no energy and psychologically, feeling depressed, guilty because of what I've just eaten, angry that I should have more control and sad that I've let myself down.
With levels as high as yours Ally, it will be having a negative impact on your depression hun. I'm a strong believer in that physical illness will effect us psychologically, and psychological illnesses will have a negative impact on our physical state.
Having said all of that, this is a very difficult thing for you to do Ally and I really understand that.
I really think that it would be very beneficial for you to have both physical support and psychological support and counseling too.
I think you would find it a whole lot easier to do if all of that support and guidance was put in place for you hun.
I'd advise that you go back to your GP and ask him if he can arrange these things for you, print off this reply and show him if it will help you hun.
You
CAN do this Ally, but you need lots of help and support whilst you're doing it, we're all here willing you along and listening to you as well as supporting you.
Come on Ally! let's do this together, we
WILL succeed and we
WILL be happy and healthy.