help!

Well, after months of scanning this site, I decided 2 take the plunge & write a few words (thanks 2 Jane whose post I answered earlier!) I'm Emma, I'm 40 & was diagnosed at the end of April last year. It was totally out of the blue, I only went 2 the Dr because I had a pain in my stomach (totally unrelated!) I was not overweight & a distant relative is the closest I have 2 it being in the family. It knocked me 4 6! I suffered all the feelings & emotions everyone else suffers, anger, fear, upset, confusion & I had v little support from the Dr or the diabetic nurse. If I'm honest, the Desmond course I attended didn't help either, one of the nurses told me that because there is no explanation as to why I have diabetes then I can expect 2 b injecting sooner rather than later - deep joy! So, I have lost over a stone, I have bought a treadmill which I use regularly & I take my 500mg of metformin religiously. My hba1c has reduced from 65 2 49 & I eat as healthily as I can (having the odd treat now & again). I'm still a bit angry, upset, I'm a lot confused, there is so much information out there its often mind blowing but most of all, I'm scared. I know as long as I carry on the way I am that I will b ok but that doesn't make the fear go away. What am I scared of? I don't know. I'm sure with time & more knowledge I'll b fine but I guess I could do with some support from people who know what I'm going thru, I've avoided writing before if I'm honest, mostly because I felt I needed 2 deal with it by myself but now I think I need 2 open up a little, bottling things up never works!! So, any advice will b gratefully received! Sorry 4 the maudlin post!! Thanx 4 reading. Emma