Awww Shirley, welcome to the forum, read through the posts here and you will see that everyone of us has experienced what you are going through now so come on dont feel silly, there is no need to, a bit of sympathy doesnt do any harm ever, after all sometimes life is such a struggle and as the saying goes, a problem shared is a problem hard.
You have done incredibly well shedding 4st, I know from experience that this is really hard to do and your doctor and nurse and dietitian will be so proud of you too.
The doctor might not give you any new medication at all, see whst your results are first and if the doctor does suggest medication ask if you can maybe try a bit longer with diet and exercise alone and then work out some regime that might just help your bg be stable (there are loads of suggestions for that in this forum and so much information too, I think it is the not knowing thst creates fear, the more you learn the more confident you will become.
Tell what sort of scary stories have you heard?
It made me smile and so sad also when I read that you wish that you grandma was still alive, I miss my grandma too, she died last September aged 96, I know people in here will just laugh about me but when you love someone so very much they can be 500 years old and it still is too soon.
She was very clever and knew about remedies and things, right up the week before she died she was still going for her swimming and mass every morning, then back home for a snack and then on to the old peoples home to do voluntary work there, most of the residents even younger than her own children.
Tell what remedies she knew, its interesting to know, these things should never be forgotteh.
I hope you do make that appointment, tell us what time and we will all go with you (not physially hehehe, but we will all be thinking of you, we will be brave with you. And then come back here and we will put on the kettle, ration ourselves to a couple of nutty, fruity oat biscuits and we will chat and giggle how is that huh?
All the best
Karen x
Challenges can be stumbling blocks or stepping stones, it depends how you view them