The early days are so hard. My son was diagnosed in Oct 2010 and I felt devastated. It was such a hard time. BUT life does get back to normal, just a different type of 'normal'. It took a few months of adjustment and then there was no stopping us as we were determined not to let type 1 spoil our sons life. We took him on a 2 week road trip round California and Nevada - through 55 degree deserts, universal studios, horse riding, long walks in Yosemite etc and he loved it and his HBA is always under 7.5. So these feelings you have now will lessen. The worry is always there but instead of it taking over 100% of your mind, it will just become part of life and your routine. Keep strong. It's going to be alright. xxxxx