Nell80
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- Injustice and unfounded judgment...There are times when I greatly dislike myself.
...Endocrinologist to be precise, I hope to have one fitted on the NHS. I dont feel I was really listened to.
I was told that I didnt fit the criteria right now to be fitted with a pump, my Hba1c levels are too high and I dont have regular contact with a dietitian, so he is putting these things into place to set the balls rolling - thats fine, I am happy with this.
He reaffirmed the need to inject my levemir in the "pocket" area of my leg (really???...thanks for the tip)...but what -really- upset me was that he advised this inspite of the fact that the reason I havnt been injecting there is because I have lipohypertrophy (I couldnt remember the word at the time, but I described the massive lump of fat there which is on both sides)...and they then said to do it in my ass...I dont want to gain fat on my ass as well !!! at which point I welled up, but they reaffirmed like automatons and moved on.
He commented that I tested my blood sugar too often and inquired about this, it was obvious he was concerned about the "cost" to the NHS. People who dont have diabetes...even DOCTORS dont seem to understand that -what- my blood sugars are comes in second to finding out the direction and rate which it is moving...which is why at each test point in the day, I may need to do it, 2 or 3 times within the space of an hr or 2. The 2nd time to see if it is rising and falling...the 3rd to see if the action taken (sugar etc) is working if the 1st result indicated my sugars were in a place where something needed to be done....surely this is better than not testing at all...I am frightened they are going to try and "ween" me off testing as much, he said: "but surely you can tell when you are going hypo by the feeling"....and I said "by the time I feel hypo, I -am- hypo of course...I thought blood testing was to prevent this from happening??".
Theres other stuff that concerned me, but I shall leave it there for now...the way I was treated today makes me worry that my feelings and needs within this process arnt going to be treated with respect....do I want/need an insulin pump enough to be treated in that way?...I'm pretty sure it would make a -huge- difference to my current control issues, but, if my lifestyle needs and healthy eating habits are challenged without being given their due respect I think I would rather go without and leave this world with a clear conscience (dont worry, my life isnt in danger at all, i'm merely referring to the grand scheme)....Rant over, it was just a great reminder as to why I never bother asking for help.
Has anyone else had experiences like this? Can anyone give me any reassurance or advice?
I was told that I didnt fit the criteria right now to be fitted with a pump, my Hba1c levels are too high and I dont have regular contact with a dietitian, so he is putting these things into place to set the balls rolling - thats fine, I am happy with this.
He reaffirmed the need to inject my levemir in the "pocket" area of my leg (really???...thanks for the tip)...but what -really- upset me was that he advised this inspite of the fact that the reason I havnt been injecting there is because I have lipohypertrophy (I couldnt remember the word at the time, but I described the massive lump of fat there which is on both sides)...and they then said to do it in my ass...I dont want to gain fat on my ass as well !!! at which point I welled up, but they reaffirmed like automatons and moved on.
He commented that I tested my blood sugar too often and inquired about this, it was obvious he was concerned about the "cost" to the NHS. People who dont have diabetes...even DOCTORS dont seem to understand that -what- my blood sugars are comes in second to finding out the direction and rate which it is moving...which is why at each test point in the day, I may need to do it, 2 or 3 times within the space of an hr or 2. The 2nd time to see if it is rising and falling...the 3rd to see if the action taken (sugar etc) is working if the 1st result indicated my sugars were in a place where something needed to be done....surely this is better than not testing at all...I am frightened they are going to try and "ween" me off testing as much, he said: "but surely you can tell when you are going hypo by the feeling"....and I said "by the time I feel hypo, I -am- hypo of course...I thought blood testing was to prevent this from happening??".
Theres other stuff that concerned me, but I shall leave it there for now...the way I was treated today makes me worry that my feelings and needs within this process arnt going to be treated with respect....do I want/need an insulin pump enough to be treated in that way?...I'm pretty sure it would make a -huge- difference to my current control issues, but, if my lifestyle needs and healthy eating habits are challenged without being given their due respect I think I would rather go without and leave this world with a clear conscience (dont worry, my life isnt in danger at all, i'm merely referring to the grand scheme)....Rant over, it was just a great reminder as to why I never bother asking for help.
Has anyone else had experiences like this? Can anyone give me any reassurance or advice?