Lack of Motovation

Think we have all been there at some point. However if you want to put on more weight then insulin will do it for you.
Have a good look round the forum, and check out low carb high fat, you might just see that its not all bad. Also getting out for a walk really does get the old endorphins going.

Hi and welcome.

The eating, depression, apathy, overeating and uncontrolled blood glucose are all connected, like a house of cards, they all shore each other up.

If you can manage to kick one of them, then the others may lose their hold, or at least feel much less crushing.

How about picking one of them and taking it step by step, and seeing if you can tackle it?

I think that the eating, overeating and blood glucose are all interlinked, and can be tackled together.
In your place, i would be looking at dietary advice on low carbing on www.dietdoctor.com and fasting on Jason Fung's blog https://intensivedietarymanagement.com

But most of all, please understand that you aren't alone. We may not all be in your situation, but diabetes is closely associated with everything you have talked about, and we've all experienced some, if not all, of your issues.