Dear All,
I am a type 1 diabetic (have been one for the last 3 years), and I'm having serious issues with it. I don't know anyone with diabetes, family or friends, and since I've moved countries 4 times these last three years, I've never had proper control either with regular visits to the doctor. I guess, I would like to know if what I'm going through is in any way normal and if anyone else has experienced it too.
I started off completely denying I had diabetes. I ate what I usually ate (and that has never been healthy, Im a total sugar junky), didn't really exercise, and soon found out that that if I skipped on day insulin I wouldn't even gain weight (I never stopped taking night insulin though). In retrospect, I have been really stupid, I realize. Either way, for the first few years I was kind of feeling okay, even though my average long term sugars were around 12. Lately, however things have turned around. I have started feeling bad pretty much all the time. I'm tired, irritable, have cheast and kidney pains and all I want is sleep. It's like there's a permanent cloud in my head, I can't concentrate on anything (not fun, while doing your masters) and have weird mood swings (so not me). I've managed to bring down my long term sugars to 8.9, which I know is still too high but my current doctor doesn't seem to be worried. I know though, that it's not ok. At this stage however, I feel like I no longer have any energy to do the things required to get better. I feel a bit like I've never been given proper guidance, and I'm not sure where to get it either. I've never spoken to a dietician or even met with a person who's experienced diabetes. Is it normal to feel this way? Is it more in my head, the tiredness and diziness? If anyone has any advice on how they coped with it, what routines they started doing, or what helped them in general accepting the fact that they have this conditionm, I would really love to hear it. It makes me so angry that I can't wake up one day, and make it go away. And while I wish for the "cure" to come, I'd still really rather stay around till I'm an old lady. At the rate I'm going though, I'm worried it won't happen.
I apologise if this is too whiny/personal. I just figured, if you don't ask for advice you're not gonna get it