missed you guys

Hey guys I haven't been on for a couple of weeks as well to be honest it's been a hell of a time .
I as you may recall have had a rocky few yrs and lost many family members , I am disabled and my health seems to have gotten worse and I now await tests .
We also have a Disabled Son , he is amazing and doesn't let anything stand in his way, it as been stressful because he was chosen as a vounteer for Glasgow 2014 and we have to put lots in place he is staying with a friend but this is the first time away from home as such and I am heart broken.
I think the diagnosis of diabetes on top of the new health issues and then Jhon going away also some real major money worries took its toll and yesterday I went for a stroll in the local park and sat on a bench with my best friend and cried and cried, she said she didn't recognise me and she took me to the Dr and it would appear I have had a breakdown . Phew didn't think I would find the courage to say it .
Why am I telling you ? I am telling you because you guys were the ones who held me up when I didn't know what to do.

Please can you advice me guys I am still seeing figure of fasting 5.5 or 6 ish and two hrs after about 7.5 are these still good reading as I have my next blood test at the end of this month and after seeing the dietician feel pretty low he was saying my numbers should not be changeling at all with veg and chicken ???? Although the diabetic specialist nurse says they change with everything ??? He then told be and left me in tears that maybe my diabetes is worse than they thought and to go back tomy Dr. I saw a neurologist who thought my lack of taste was most possibly down to the come down in numbers and also that my stress levels can cause taste issues the dietician says this is not so ??? Yet it was a neurologist I saw who says my numbers are pretty good as far as he is concerned.
I do see some 8 and I have no idea one hr after guys am I losing this battle ???
Supposed to be going for a glass of red wine with my friends but I am sta scred stiff

Hey missed you x

thank you

Cauliflower and broccoli and carrots Hun xx

I think the dietician just got to me . I feel a little better now you have said my numbers are okay.
I so wished I was where you are tonight Hun my boy is staying in Dundee and it is killing me.
The fact I can't or I am too scared to tell anyone what my fears are are making it worse .
Everyone keeps saying I know you are worried because of his bone condition but he will be fine nd I want to scream its not just that it's these things I have kept inside for years and wished I could tell someone but no one would understand xxx
It just feels like I have lost my rock xx am I making sense you must think I am mad

My Son is working as a vounteer at a hotel in St Andrews apparently the hotel is about twenty minutes from where he is staying in Dundee xxx I just feel like someone as ripped my heart out .

I miss my son like crazy when he just goes for a sleepover with his pals. Buy I know it is good for him in the long run.

We Glasgow folk are very welcoming. Your son will be well cared for when he is here

Thank you x he is staying in Dundee and working as a Glasgow 2014 volunteer in a hotel in st Andrews . I am told its only about twenty minutes away, he has a bone condition and this is the first time he will have been away for any length of time we are both nervous but I just wish I was in Scotland Hun x he did say he had a lovely welcome from a taxi driver when he arrived xxx

I assume that the games organisers will be aware of his condition? They will contact you if there is any problem. I know a bit how you feel though x

Hi yes they know he is also taking his wheelchair he is stopping with a very god friend of his xx oh how I miss him xxx