Ok thanks for the good advice Andrew. I guess I'm just tired of the energy it takes to manage this disease and want it to go away. Will eat a little more
The sad reality is, every person manages their lives every day. Some don't get their balances right; which could be those whose management is subconscious and nutritionally random, and for some of us (absolutely not all), that's how and why we ended up here. Maybe managing our busy lives with too many missed meals, food on the hoof and prioritising other things over the fuel for our bodies.
Others manage to micro-nutrient level, which I, personally, would find exhausting, so I try to ensure I vary my diet quite a lot.
Whether we are trying to lose, maintain or even gain weight, that's best achieved somewhat mindfully. I've always enjoyed food, and with an OH who is a former restaurateur, have had some fabulous culinary experiences. On my diagnosis, we had a few OSMs (OSM - Oh s^&* moments) where we thought the (culinary) good times had come to an end, but the reality is those good times have just changed a bit.
Having got my diabetes into a decent place, I can eat more, both in terms of calories and carbs, than I could during my journey to a decent HbA1c, but I have chosen not to push the envelope, as I personally, don't want to go back round that diabetic revolving door. After all, I have no way of knowing if I'd be able to jump out again in the right place. That doesn't mean for one moment that I live a miserable life. I don't. I've just got used to our new way of eating and living, and we have found loads of new and different flavour and food combinations that I know I wouldn't have bothered to try if I hadn't been looking for alternatives.
For most people, who manage to get their diabetes to a good place, reverting to how they ate and lived before increases the potential to return to their diagnostic state. There usually have to be some sustained change. Exactly what those changes are will differ per person.