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I'm fifteen, been type one since I was seven so I've had it for eight years. When being diagnosed all the doctors and nurses said my diabetes would never keep me from doing something I wanted to. I'm not talking about the finger pricks, the shots, the constant checking; granted all very annoying. But I'm talking about a significant part of my life. Before I didn't know what I wanted to do, my diabetes was a simple obstacle. Now I view it as my absolute worst enemy. Because of this I can not join any of the armed forces, navy, or any part of the military. I want to do this so bad I feel sick when I know I can't. What people said didn't used to bother me, now I'm sensitive to everything people say. A navy officer visited our class and was talking about what you need to become an officer, I meet all the requirements, that's the worst part, if I didn't have this, I could become a naval officer... But I can never be that. No one understands, not my friends nor my family; I don't know anyone with diabetes in my school. It wouldn't be so bad if a cure was soon. But since I was diagnosed word of a cure would come but then nothing silence. Every time getting my hopes up. When they say something about a cure , it doesn't phase me, I don't want to get hurt anymore, I don't want to cry again because I have to live with this; I don't want the silly hopes of a cure because for eight years I've seen countless cures, hundreds of foundations collecting millions of dollars to find a cure... But there is no cure. I'm damaged goods and I and everyone else with this has to deal with it

Thank you mike, usually I'm not so depressive, it's just I couldn't say this to anyone that's not diabetic, they wouldn't understand. And definitely

True, it's just hard sometimes, a person without the disease will never know anything about what you are feeling, and not very many people in my town have type one. Thank you for your input I'll hopefully find something new to distract me