Hello Sharon Anne,
I think sometimes we can be so disciplined and tight with our control that we do not allow any short falls whatsoever !
I need to treat myself every now ant then. It's good for me mentally.
We're not Olympic sprinters having to attain top speed every time we run. We're human beings.
Allow yourself a little slack every now and then and enjoy it !
Don't allow this illness to take over your life to the point of obsession.
Be "good" rather that "exceptional" and give yourself that "slack" you deserve !