- Messages
- 4
- Type of diabetes
- Type 1
- Treatment type
- Insulin
- Dislikes
- Diabetes
Hello, I'm commonly known as Owen. I was diagnosed with the cruel disease that is diabetes mellitus in August 2009. Living with diabetes feels like I'm on a rollercoaster that will forever ascend. It never gets easier. It's the bane of my life. I want to eat/drink something with carbohydrates, oh better inject myself. Oh wait, I inject myself four times a day, sometimes more and now the result of that is: I have lumpy areas of skin so the insulin will not be delivered efficiently. Time for blood sugars to rocket to the sky, hooray. I can't live a normal life despite what the lying doctors may preach. I want to drive, better re-apply for my license every three years. I want to have a sip of juice that isn't diet? More injections. I want to go to the gym, work hard and dedicate my mind and body to become fitter, vascular and build muscle bulk? No, diabetes will not allow me that. As soon as my blood sugar begins to creep above 10mmol, my body looks for insulin but finds nothing so it eats away at any fat/muscle and I just become as scrawny as ever. I want to go out in public? Not without carrying all my medication and extra things such as sweets in the event of a hypo. I CAN'T live a normal life! I would kill to gain the life I had before diabetes. Not having to worry about anything. I miss that. Instead I have to deal with it whilst it eats away at my life. I just want it to stop. I feel so depressed at times, it really brings me down. On another note, if it's true pharmaceutical companies have the cure or the means for a cure to type one diabetes but will not distribute or produce it because there will be no money/profit to be made from the disease, then that absolutely sickens me. Is a cure too much to ask for? I just want to lead a normal life. Rant over.