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Hi there.
Sorry this is probably going to be a long post.
I currently work full time in a demanding office job. I'm also nearing the end of a part time phd that's taken 5 years.
I was diagnosed almost 3 years ago.
I've got a long history of depression too.
Just before my diagnosis I had noticed that I suffered lethargy and stuff led to focus. more than ever before (I've always been a fairly high achiever). I was diagnosed by chance but pleased to have an answer. I thought that bringing my levels into line would help.
3 years later and I have the same issue. this last year has been dominated by a severe depression triggered by the suicide of someone i knew (not a close friend but I was one of the people to find him).
I've completed a course of cbt and emdr since and am currently weeing myself off anti depressants.
However the lack of focus and lethargy are still at large. after a days work I do very little at home. I am not motivated at all. it also takes a lot of effort to stay focused at work.
I can't help feel that I am giving what little energy I have to my job at the expense of my quality of life. I am petrified I will lose 5 years work and not complete my PhD too.
I earn a decent (not massive wage) but it doesn't pay for any luxuries to compensate.
I'm considering looking into benefits and wondered if anyone has any advice on this. I'm concerned because I know how very difficult disability assessment are these days. externally I look and seem fine. I can do anything in want to really, but I struggle through lack of energy. also following my treatment on paper my depression is fixed. for the most part it is. But I'm a people pleaser and don't want my therapist to be dissappinted. she really did help the worst of it but I can't say it's gone, it's just less intense.
I wouldn't know where to start really. what benefits? how to apply? how much can I expect? can I still study and/or do some work.
I really don't want a life on benefits but I can't keep giving all I have for a job that's not THAT fulfilling and spending my spare time under the duvet hopine that no one calls on me for any social obligations. from what I can see the government will do everything in its power to keep you in a job if you have one.
All advice and guidance recieved with gratitude.
Best wishes
Kerry
Sorry this is probably going to be a long post.
I currently work full time in a demanding office job. I'm also nearing the end of a part time phd that's taken 5 years.
I was diagnosed almost 3 years ago.
I've got a long history of depression too.
Just before my diagnosis I had noticed that I suffered lethargy and stuff led to focus. more than ever before (I've always been a fairly high achiever). I was diagnosed by chance but pleased to have an answer. I thought that bringing my levels into line would help.
3 years later and I have the same issue. this last year has been dominated by a severe depression triggered by the suicide of someone i knew (not a close friend but I was one of the people to find him).
I've completed a course of cbt and emdr since and am currently weeing myself off anti depressants.
However the lack of focus and lethargy are still at large. after a days work I do very little at home. I am not motivated at all. it also takes a lot of effort to stay focused at work.
I can't help feel that I am giving what little energy I have to my job at the expense of my quality of life. I am petrified I will lose 5 years work and not complete my PhD too.
I earn a decent (not massive wage) but it doesn't pay for any luxuries to compensate.
I'm considering looking into benefits and wondered if anyone has any advice on this. I'm concerned because I know how very difficult disability assessment are these days. externally I look and seem fine. I can do anything in want to really, but I struggle through lack of energy. also following my treatment on paper my depression is fixed. for the most part it is. But I'm a people pleaser and don't want my therapist to be dissappinted. she really did help the worst of it but I can't say it's gone, it's just less intense.
I wouldn't know where to start really. what benefits? how to apply? how much can I expect? can I still study and/or do some work.
I really don't want a life on benefits but I can't keep giving all I have for a job that's not THAT fulfilling and spending my spare time under the duvet hopine that no one calls on me for any social obligations. from what I can see the government will do everything in its power to keep you in a job if you have one.
All advice and guidance recieved with gratitude.
Best wishes
Kerry