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I have never felt like more of a failure than today. Had my appointment today and my HbA1c is still >14%.
It has now been almost 5 years that I have been diagnosed - by now it all should be just like brushing teeth: A HABIT but it isn't. I have been in denial from the start. I have a stubborn character which doesn't make it easier.
I'm the sort of person who has blamed every signle thing that has happened to me on this disease. I know no one of my age or even just around me that has diabetes. Most of my friends don't know about it and if they do, they don't know what it is. Long story-short I feel ALONE.
In our appointment today, my father actually cried. It has reached a point where I am a disappointment even to him, the one closest to me in this world. To be honest it's what hurts the most. Nevermind me or the doctor but my own father.
Anyways, the doctor wants me to go into this clinic (I hate these places). Thing is, if I go in it will be with the thought that it's not going to help - therefore it won't.
I'm desperately searching for an alternative but nothing is coming to mind.
I feel LOST
It has now been almost 5 years that I have been diagnosed - by now it all should be just like brushing teeth: A HABIT but it isn't. I have been in denial from the start. I have a stubborn character which doesn't make it easier.
I'm the sort of person who has blamed every signle thing that has happened to me on this disease. I know no one of my age or even just around me that has diabetes. Most of my friends don't know about it and if they do, they don't know what it is. Long story-short I feel ALONE.
In our appointment today, my father actually cried. It has reached a point where I am a disappointment even to him, the one closest to me in this world. To be honest it's what hurts the most. Nevermind me or the doctor but my own father.
Anyways, the doctor wants me to go into this clinic (I hate these places). Thing is, if I go in it will be with the thought that it's not going to help - therefore it won't.
I'm desperately searching for an alternative but nothing is coming to mind.
I feel LOST