@Chloesnavy Anyone ever get this? YES. It was utterly horrible. I was totally out of action from the beginning of August until the end of October last year, with a raging and recurrent kidney infection.
By September I was dragging myself to the doctor pretty much every week to ask why I wasn't getting better, why I couldn't eat, why I couldn't think, why I couldn't do anything other than sleep and be in pain.
Eventually I saw a doctor I hadn't seen for a while - the one at our surgery who is known for straight talking and for her unwillingness to prescribe anything for anything unless you're at death's door. So when she said 'I would say that recovering from an infection as serious as you've had is akin to recovering from pneumonia', followed by 'you have been very, very ill - it's going to take some time, and you need to be more reasonable with your expectations' I seriously sat up and took notice.
Went home and granted myself
permission to not be doing any of the things I wanted and needed to be doing. I wasn't able to be doing anything, and like you I found this very frustrating (once I felt well enough to even care). And this 'permission' did huge things for my self-esteem, and took the pressure off me. Which in turn helped me to get better.
I had not taken on board how ill I actually was. So please, Chloe, don't be so hard on yourself. You are poorly, and it is going to take some time.
Hugs.
Love Snapsy
