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- Type of diabetes
- Type 1
- Treatment type
- Insulin
Hi all, Long time reader first time poster.
I Have been suffering with both bi-lateral retinopathy and Macular Edema for a while, mainly due to being put on Quetiapine by my mental health team for insomnia.
I have had several rounds of Laser and Injections all of which has caused my retina's to swell up (uveitis). This has caused me a great deal of pain and light sensitivity. I've actually lost a job, due to having time off due to having operations on a weekly basis during the second part of my probation. I was given the choice of jump or we will push.
Reading other peoples experiences they all seem to be relatively painless, just gritty eyes for a few hours/day. I'm almost bed bound with the curtains drawn. I have had just had another hemorrhage in my right eye and I feel like its about to exploded from the pressure, currently at work. I'm in pain, I'm tired, upset and just want to cry.
I did actually have a little cry on the way to work. I feel pretty wretched. Ironically I worked at BMEC for 8 years and I think its made me worse, saw all kinds of diabetic patients who didn't get quite the positive out look we hoped for.
Due to loosing my permanent full time job I am just working agency as I am going to have to have at least 4-5 more operations and i cant risk my mental health due loosing a job and (I'm teaching right now) getting attached to the kids and then having to let them down by not being there or leaving half way through a term. I feel a bit trapped currently.
I'm supposed to be getting married and having a child soon, i can't even afford to pay my mortgage half the time, my fiancée is basically paying it and im just paying some of the bills.
Sorry for the long message
I Have been suffering with both bi-lateral retinopathy and Macular Edema for a while, mainly due to being put on Quetiapine by my mental health team for insomnia.
I have had several rounds of Laser and Injections all of which has caused my retina's to swell up (uveitis). This has caused me a great deal of pain and light sensitivity. I've actually lost a job, due to having time off due to having operations on a weekly basis during the second part of my probation. I was given the choice of jump or we will push.
Reading other peoples experiences they all seem to be relatively painless, just gritty eyes for a few hours/day. I'm almost bed bound with the curtains drawn. I have had just had another hemorrhage in my right eye and I feel like its about to exploded from the pressure, currently at work. I'm in pain, I'm tired, upset and just want to cry.
I did actually have a little cry on the way to work. I feel pretty wretched. Ironically I worked at BMEC for 8 years and I think its made me worse, saw all kinds of diabetic patients who didn't get quite the positive out look we hoped for.
Due to loosing my permanent full time job I am just working agency as I am going to have to have at least 4-5 more operations and i cant risk my mental health due loosing a job and (I'm teaching right now) getting attached to the kids and then having to let them down by not being there or leaving half way through a term. I feel a bit trapped currently.
I'm supposed to be getting married and having a child soon, i can't even afford to pay my mortgage half the time, my fiancée is basically paying it and im just paying some of the bills.
Sorry for the long message