Hello,
I've never made a post before and don't know if I'm doing this right?
I was diagnosed with type 1 diabetes 18 years ago but it has never been controlled and has ruined my life ever since. Not looking for sympathy or feeling sorry for myself but none of the support or clinics have ever been helpful for me and I have never been able to come to terms with it. I have been to different areas and clinics and tried therapy and psychology services at various times but it hasn't helped for me. My best hba1c result was in 2012 and was 8.7 (I think), but I haven't had a reading below 16 in about 8 years now, usually my blood sugar is over 20. I have tried a lot of different insulins with a pen and pump, again it didn't make life any easier (I now just use Levemir pre filled pens) I stopped going to clinics about 4 years ago and have given up on this condition completely, I wouldn't call it diabetes burnout as I have felt the same way since diagnosis. Just over a year ago I lost the central vision completely in my left eye and have had serious neuropathy for 3 years (I'm 28 but feel like 78 at this point), I'm not bothered by it anymore and can still exercise and function fairly well around the house etc. But I know that I probably won't live that much longer. I have tried every kind of support from family, groups, professionals, the hospital and private therapists since the age of 10 but nothing has changed the way I feel about my diabetes. I have never felt suicidal or tried to end my life intentionally but feel that nature is already doing that and I find that easier to come to terms with than the cindition itself. I just wondered if anyone else has resigned or just never cared about having this disease, or if they're coping with poor control or complications too?
Apologies for a negative post, but I can't really say anything positive for diabetes as it has ruined things for me personally.
I've never made a post before and don't know if I'm doing this right?
I was diagnosed with type 1 diabetes 18 years ago but it has never been controlled and has ruined my life ever since. Not looking for sympathy or feeling sorry for myself but none of the support or clinics have ever been helpful for me and I have never been able to come to terms with it. I have been to different areas and clinics and tried therapy and psychology services at various times but it hasn't helped for me. My best hba1c result was in 2012 and was 8.7 (I think), but I haven't had a reading below 16 in about 8 years now, usually my blood sugar is over 20. I have tried a lot of different insulins with a pen and pump, again it didn't make life any easier (I now just use Levemir pre filled pens) I stopped going to clinics about 4 years ago and have given up on this condition completely, I wouldn't call it diabetes burnout as I have felt the same way since diagnosis. Just over a year ago I lost the central vision completely in my left eye and have had serious neuropathy for 3 years (I'm 28 but feel like 78 at this point), I'm not bothered by it anymore and can still exercise and function fairly well around the house etc. But I know that I probably won't live that much longer. I have tried every kind of support from family, groups, professionals, the hospital and private therapists since the age of 10 but nothing has changed the way I feel about my diabetes. I have never felt suicidal or tried to end my life intentionally but feel that nature is already doing that and I find that easier to come to terms with than the cindition itself. I just wondered if anyone else has resigned or just never cared about having this disease, or if they're coping with poor control or complications too?
Apologies for a negative post, but I can't really say anything positive for diabetes as it has ruined things for me personally.