Why-me? You are not alone in feeling the way you do, it is normal, but now you have to get on with your life and deal with it.
Why you? Well why not you? You have Type 1 diabetes, so do I, so do many people on this site. Most of us have diabetes of some sort and do any of us want that? No. We are members of a club that no-one wants to join. But that is what it is and you have 2 choices; you can either control diabetes or it will control you; there is no third way.
You say that it's stopping you doing what you want to do, and I think that's a lot of ****; I've dived on the Great Barrier Reef, I've seen the dawn come up on active volcanoes in Indonesia, I've competed at elite level in rowing, I've met and worked with 2 of my all time musical heroes, I've drank A LOT of wine, I've got married and have 2 children. Diabetes hasn't stopped me doing any of that.
You are young but you are not a child; you are an adult in the eyes of the law and you need to start taking on the responsibility for looking after yourself; if you don't then diabetes will start to really control you and then it really will stop you doing things you might want to do.
Here's a couple of things to think about; you have discovered how slippery and dangerous diabetes is; it will give you the test first and the lesson later. As you've noticed you don't really have to do anything much on a day to day level, take some insulin every now and again and your life will trundle on with all being apparently well.
But that is a mirage; that is not what is really happening; your health is being damaged right now. All of your peripheral blood vessels are being slowly and possibly permanently damaged by high blood sugars. You won't notice this until your doctor starts talking about what stage kidney disease you have and how your retinopathy has progressed from background to proliferative, or how those numb toes you have are in fact not going to get their sensation back. Then you will understand the lesson of control but these things once done cannot ordinarily be undone.
There are many many posts here about how to gain control and how to refine it; you need to start working on that now as you have been today and for the last 2 years making an enemy of your future. See how many people on here wish they had controlled their diabetes better when they were in their teens; you amongst them are unique in that you still can.
You are angry, I think, with your friends for asking about your diabetes because it reminds you that they care about you and you apparently do not. In terms of being embarrassed about diabetes we all have that; but it's really not an issue for anyone but us and our loved ones - no one else gives a ****; if you tell a colleague that you have diabetes they will say 'oh my aunt had that but she ate a lot of cakes. Anyway, isn't EastEnders **** at the moment.' It's like walking down the street with sunglasses on on a grey day; you think everyone is looking at you because the glasses are so noticeable to you, in fact no one even sees you.
Test your blood sugars before you eat, go on a DAFNE course, test, work out how to calculate insulin to carbohydrates, test, think about what is happening, do more exercise, test, read books, and test.
You can control this, we all can, and if you can control it you can do anything you like. If you ignore it don't for a second kid yourself that your diabetes is ignoring you; it's not going to go away, it's not going to be cured, it will mess you up very badly if you let it. Just make the decision that you are not going to let it do that and you are half way there.
Best
Dillinger
Lastly; why not change your username? It just smacks of being a victim; you are not a victim you are a young woman with diabetes.