i am a diabetic of 23 years now my blood glucose was ok till i hit my teens then i new best betime i got to 20 i was in hospital for nearly 3 years in and out spending 10 to 12 weeks in at a time i hated been diabetic but i have done the damage now my self i admitt that by having blood sugars in 20 30 40 all the time i felt ok at the time but suffering lots now i take on average 38 tablets a day for pain for high blood pressure stomuck problems my nerves in my hole boody have been a fected my bowls my diagestion my site my kidneys and feet and legs my mum died of renual failure and nerve problems my sister has now started of all this two am goin the same way with my kidney we all are diabetic i am prob the worset one i need help trying to keep in control i find it so hard now to do any thing cause i have messed about so much i have been told i will be dead in the next 5 years by 6 doctors what is not good i suffer from losts of infection so always on antibiotics what does not help can any one help me i am scared and finding this all very hard to keep in control and under stand it all thanxs yours steve