Hi
I've been 'too sweet' (ha my attempt at a quirky phrase for 'type 1 diabetic'! Feel free to top it!) for 13 years next month. I was never overly worried about complications, my mum has been type 1 for 38 years and is still buzzing around at 62, with no major conplications. so she was always my benchmark (or, rather, my reason to take all the rules with a pinch of salt).
But the last couple of years I have gone into a tailspin on a few occasions, about little niggles that I have convinced myself spells 'the end' - or that wake me up to a future that may be 'compromised' by diabetes. I've always been a worrier, but these occasions have opened me up to full on panic attacks & awful stress. I then feel terrible about my kids, 3 &10, will they get it? Will I be healthy enough to help them/be around as they grow?
It's so nice to hear that others also go through it. What makes me upset is that these 'scary' times spur me on to achieve better control and make better choices. Then life happens and being diabetic comes second. I find it impossible to be in control 100% of the time, I just can't keep it up. Then along comes a scary symptom and BANG! it all comes crashing down & I m scared, get v stressed and can't sleep at night (where I am right now).
Elc's right, we can only keep on top of it, and go to appts, and try not to worry about what hasn't happened yet (altho I think I know better that medical professionals and that I already have complications, I drive myself mad contemplating it all).
Love this forum, no one I know realises the psychological effect of this rubbish disease, not even my mum (she's not one of life's worriers, wish I took after her!) xxx