I can empathise with the way you feel about the diagnosis because it happened to me in exactly the same way. I called the surgery and was put through to a doctor who delivered the diagnosis in a very matter of fact way, 'I'm sorry to tell you that you have diabetes. Come along and see a DSN'. Although I knew it was inevitable because it's in the family, it was still a shock at the age of 42. The other thing that doesn't help is that everyone keeps saying,' Ooh you're very young to get it' which leaves me thinking I'm bound to develop health complications because I will have more time being diabetic if that makes sense. It's left me feeling very negative to say the least. That said, I have lost 1.5 stone since Feb and controlled my BS with diet. Although my hba1c was only 44, my doc recommended metformin but I refused. Now I'm wondering if maybe I should take it because of all the potential health benefits. I'm 8 months into my diagnosis and still scared and confused! I've never been offered the opportunity to talk about the emotional side - it all seems to hinge on the physical side in my appointments.
I too have experienced anxiety, depression and panic attacks. In November of 2006 I was unrecognisable! Since then I've been much better with only a few short, much milder episodes which I've managed ok. But this diagnosis has knocked me for six. For the last 2 months I've been getting very stressed with the tell tale 'disconnectedness and occasional dizziness. I'm constantly worrying about health stuff and checking BP, heart rate, for lumps etc, wondering why I feel so tired and generally focusing on 'body feelings'. I've got an appt with the doc on the 7th and will tell her all of this. Although I know I'm being a twit, I don't seem to be able to stop obsessing about becoming ill. it doesn't help that I work in Adult Social Care where I see ill and confused elderly people every day, many of whom suffer from diabetes related illnesses.
I really hope that your anxiety subsides. It's bad enough being diagnosed with diabetes, let alone all the anxiety issues that go with it. I suppose it's all about having the right attitude. The worrying thing is that we could have remained undiagnosed and caused all sorts of real damage. A diagnosis means the ability to make changes which will benefit your health. Good luck.
