Awww salsasue, I am crying with you, I just know what it feels like to lose a beloved pet, you feel totally gutted, its not just a pet, its a little family member, one that never argues with you and is always there to comfort you and give you oodles of fun and laughter too. I always say its so lovely to have a pet, you get nothing but pleasure from having them around you andthe only time you hurt is when you lose them.
I love all animals, I wish I could have a dog and a giraffe and a sheep, cow, donkey, ducks, piglet and so on, people joke that I ought to have married Noah (but I couldnt have done because I would not have taken the reptiles on board, hmmmm maybe Noah's brother had a smaller ark and would have taken them) I have 3 cats and over the years we lost cats, and each and every time we have cried out our eyeballs, last time we took one cat to the vet we couldnt even drive the car back home, we sat outside the surgery and could not see for tears. But a few weeks later, seeing we had an empty space we took on another little rascal, not as replacement of course, that could never work.
Take comfort in the fact that you have given your little boy unending love and care, think about all those poor abandoned mistreated animals, there is no comparison your little guy was a hell of a lucky guy, you have done your absolute best and he would not want you to be sad now or make yourself ill. He will be in your heart forever you know, I know the pets we lost over the years are definitely in my heart still.
Sending you lots of love and BIG COMFORTING HUGS
Karen x