First off, hi there, I'm new to this forum, my mum convinced me to join after a string of difficulties this year. I'm 23, been a Type 1 for 15 years now, since I was 8 years old. My control has been okay over that time, my hba1c always averaged between 7-8.
About 5 years my control slacked off a bit when I went to university. I always enjoyed a few pints, and uni life meant I was always sleeping in until the afternoon, meaning I'd not have regular times to inject myself with lantus. I'd also panic when I had high blood sugars and immediately take insulin to drop them quite quickly, which I was later told was a bad way of handling things. These bad blood sugars took a toll on me mentally and I became quite depressed, and often thought about taking my own life (thoughts I've only recently managed to get over).
Then I started to settle down, I now work as a teacher and life has become quite a bit more routine.
Which is obviously where everything started to go wrong. In April I was told I had background retinothapy. I freaked out, presuming I was going blind. I saw an occupational health doctor at work last month who just made matters worse, telling me quite apathetically that "I probably have other organ damage that we can't see".
The real kicker that has made me finally join this forum was that today when I got out of bed I experienced a split-second "falling feeling" in my chest after having a drop in my blood sugar. My silly little mind has spent all day convincing me I've got some kind of heart disease, which was further fuelled by what I swear was some kind of momentary skip in my heartbeat this evening, and now I'm convinced that some kind of heart attack is heading my way and it's driving me to despair. Does anyone else get these gloomy feelings? Does anyone on here have any kind of heart condition caused by diabetes?
Sorry to vent, I feel like I needed to get this all off my chest.
About 5 years my control slacked off a bit when I went to university. I always enjoyed a few pints, and uni life meant I was always sleeping in until the afternoon, meaning I'd not have regular times to inject myself with lantus. I'd also panic when I had high blood sugars and immediately take insulin to drop them quite quickly, which I was later told was a bad way of handling things. These bad blood sugars took a toll on me mentally and I became quite depressed, and often thought about taking my own life (thoughts I've only recently managed to get over).
Then I started to settle down, I now work as a teacher and life has become quite a bit more routine.
Which is obviously where everything started to go wrong. In April I was told I had background retinothapy. I freaked out, presuming I was going blind. I saw an occupational health doctor at work last month who just made matters worse, telling me quite apathetically that "I probably have other organ damage that we can't see".
The real kicker that has made me finally join this forum was that today when I got out of bed I experienced a split-second "falling feeling" in my chest after having a drop in my blood sugar. My silly little mind has spent all day convincing me I've got some kind of heart disease, which was further fuelled by what I swear was some kind of momentary skip in my heartbeat this evening, and now I'm convinced that some kind of heart attack is heading my way and it's driving me to despair. Does anyone else get these gloomy feelings? Does anyone on here have any kind of heart condition caused by diabetes?
Sorry to vent, I feel like I needed to get this all off my chest.
