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I try to follow Bernstein's Doctrine and have found another application of it. I was explaining to an acquaintance, the low carb breakfast. ( bacon, eggs, but no toast) She asked me if that fills me up. I thought of it this morning, when hurrying to get to church, I had one Matzo cracker with cheese. Definitely NOT full, but I don't need to be.
this fits in with Ally. Have SMALL portions and don't expect to feel full.
 
I have to say, low carbing fills me up nicely. Considering the pig I used to be, I was really shocked at my lack of appetite and portion sizes and worried that I had stepped into the boundries of an eating disorder. But no, when I'm hungry, I eat and when I look in the mirror, the fat bird in front of me is really fat! Getting thinner though, started at almost 19st now down to 16st 7lbs and I'm 5` 10"

I struggle to eat two eggs and bacon for breakfast. I usually have one egg and one rasher, or two eggs if no bacon. I'm lucky, I can eat porridge and oatibix, they don't affect my BS, but what they do do is make me very hungry an hour later, so I don't eat them so much now.

I'm also still throwing away too much food because when I cook, I can't believe I see enough food in the pot to feed me, then I tuck in and hey presto, stuffed to the gills with food left over.

My lunch is often an apple and cheese. I eat small portions and feel full.

Wiflib
 
I find that protein keeps me fuller for much longer than carbs.
Well done wiflib for losing so much weight!

Karen x
 
Thanks Karen.
Don't like the shrinking boobs though!

All carbs ever did for me was make my behaviour that of a mad, food obsessed junkie. Making treacle sponge at 2am, fishing food out of the bin, searching the house for something to ease the craving and worst of all, having freaky control issues about access to food at work and friends houses. All down to carb addiction and my poor, tired pancreas.

To think I used to be slim and play sport at a competitive level.

wiflib
 
My God you have reminded me of some of my issues that I have forgotten, I used to weigh 23st at one time, totally addicted to carbs, I could eat about 5 jam doughnuts, no problem at all and still didnt feel full, 2 hours later several sandwiches, it was all carbs for me.
Then I tried to lose weight, I kept arguing with others, I kept arguing with myself, then to help me control myself I would throw food in the bin, disgusted with myself, or I would quickly squirt washing up liquid over the leftover spuds so I wouldnt be tempted to eat any more (having already eaten a vast amount), but 2 hours later I fished the spuds out of the bin, rinsed the washing up liquid off and heated them up again by frying them in some veg oil, when I think back I wonder how the hell I am still alive even. I truly was a dustbin on legs, I got down to 21st and then diagnosed diabetic, ignored the diagnosis and rebelled against it, eventually ended up in a clinic where they re-educated me, and actually put me on a lower carb diet plan, just that it wasnt called low carb in those days, protein and veg and fruit was not reduced, but bread, pasta, rice, potatoes was cut right down.

I did lose all my surplus weight, I am 5ft 6 and weigh normally 9st, but this still fluctuates and I always have to watch myself by weighing myself regularly, I can go up to almost 10st, then I take action very quickly, it doesnt happen too, often thank goodness.

Stick with it, you will lose your excess, you are doing great already.

Love

Karen x
 
Karen, that post almost made me cry.

I recognise myself in your behaviour too. What I could never understand is why, as an educated and well informed woman who kicked the filthy weed, I could not control my eating. I remember discussing the same issue with a friend and asking why, if anorexia is recognised as a complex eating disorder, is not over eating classed as an addiction. One kills very quickly with shocking visible images, one kills very slowly.
Trouble is, we all need to eat! It's not until I had changed my diet that I realised I had an addiction, and a harder one to give up to boot. None of us needs cigarettes, alcohol or street drugs to survive, but we all need food.
Who was it here that likened carbs and pancreas damage to alcohol and liver damage? That really struck home to me. I have an addiction and my body will crumble and rot if I don't control that addiction.

Carbs are my enemy, it's just pants they taste sooooooooo good.

wiflib
 
wiflib - you are doing better than me already, at least you dont have to go through a whole load of self-inflicted suffering caused by complications, I rebelled and rebelled and refused to accept that its my fault, always blaming others and circumstances, anything but myself.
I had counselling, very interesting all the theories, 'ah its from childhood, your mother weaned you too early, if she had breastfed longer you wouldnt have this, its something to do with the comfort that a baby gets from suckling at the breast' - hahaha was I happy, I found yet another excuse, someone, something else to blame, but even if this had been the cause of my overeating on carbs, it didnt solve the problem.

I think the hardest part was the day that I looked in the mirror, my swollen legs with ulcers that were totally numb, my knees bleeding because I kept falling over, my make up smudged from tears brought on by retching and vomiting, yep, and finally I had the strength to say to myself 'you "!£$"%$£%$£^%$^ PRIZE IDIOT' and from then on I stuck to it and my health improved as I went along, I am not looking back, I am not going back, never ever, its a way of life and now I feel and look healthy and I am fit and happy. so the carbs can stay where they are, they are not going to mess my life any more.
And best of all, I really seriously do not miss the carbs, I have increased them to a maximum of 130g and feel on top of the world, liver, kidney, heart, cholesterol, every test absolutely fine.
On the rare occasion where I did increase carbs just for one day I felt like a slob, slowed down, lethargic, a kind of hangover effect YUK, not worth it.
Like you I thought I am intelligent, a post graduate, but I didnt recognise my addiction. You have beaten me there, I take off my hat to you.
Cigarettes, drugs, alcohol, yep we can avoid them, but not food, so it is harder, but I am telling you soon you will find that you are feeling so much better than before and the idea of carbs is no longer so tempting, no longer so stressful for you.
As with any addiction, remember its one day at a time, dont think too far ahead, just get through the day, nothing more and remember to find other treats, a new luxurious bubble bath or whatever lasts you longer than 5 jam doughnuts, personally tried and tested :-)

When the going gets tough, come in here, chat, let off steam

Karen x
 
I think we may have been separated at birth Karen.
I absolutely and completely understand how you used to feel. But I don't think you can actually blame yourself. Carb addiction is a powerful and comforting addiction, with the added bonus of being supported by healthy eating advice. We have been in it's grip from weaning. Hell, most of us are weaned from breast (if we are lucky) to the stuff, it's all we've ever known. But you know that. You completely turned yourself around, and that is truly amazing.

I was incredibly lucky, and it was pure luck, to have discovered I'm T2 before noticeable complications took hold. But I have to say, I've seen it as nothing but a blessing. I no longer have to face the real reason I did nothing about my addiction (don't ask me what it was, I never faced up to it!) I now have diabetes as my excuse.

I have two fantastic granddaughters whom I am obsessed with (addictive personality mayhap?) and even their births did nothing to help me face up to what I was doing to my body. Pre-diagnosis, I knew about Atkins and because I also knew it may actually work, I completely lambasted the guy and agreed with his critics. What a dumb idea I used to say to any of my friends who tried it, and I toed the party line on the 'healthy diet' myth.

I could, very easily, sink my nashers into a crusty slice laced with best butter but I don't. It feels too destructive. The only time I eat the low-carb bread and pasta is when I really have little time to make anything else.
I want to head for no visible carbs at all. I know I will get there because I have to. I'm looking forward to the day when the thought of eating the stuff is as repulsive to me as chewing on a snail, garlic butter or not!!

My other obsession is banging on about how fantastic low-carbing is for me and taking up far too much space on the forum, talking about me. I can't offer any scientific advice, only anecdotal evidence with a sample of one. Or anything related to pregnancy and birth. I know a bit about that. I've got a long way to go and I'm very excited about my journey with you all.

wiflib (it's Libby and I'm a Midwife)
 
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