Grace .
Have you never been offered any counselling?
With your tears, lack of confidence [for fear of crying in public] and fear of going outdoors.
Whenever we have a life change event, diabetes diagnosis , death in family, cancer illness, loss of job, car accident, divorced etc.
It can and does affect each person differently...
There IS always a "trigger switch" - then the trauma or grief or shock kicks in.
It then breaks out in another form, illness, depression, crying, fear, anger [like if you have always been
a calm personality] stressed, etc...
As what impacts then needs an outlet - this can take months or even years to happen in some cases!
I cried for 2 weeks solid after losing my 1st dog we had had her for over 14years.
Felt wrung out after 2 weeks of wailing uncontrollably - but it certainly made me a far better person.
It was like it got rid of loads of stress in me too.
Hubby bought me 2 yes "2" more dogs, only 6 weeks after all this happened!
One (gracey) who alerts me when I get too low blood sugared, so all things do happen for a reason.
She can smell the changes in my own body scent, wont leave my side then will pester me to
the point of absolute annoyance when am going too low BG levels.
Anna.