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<blockquote data-quote="Steve14" data-source="post: 1418521" data-attributes="member: 305713"><p>Living with type 1 diabetes is like lying on the ground, watching hundreds, thousands of people walk by, smiling, chatting with each other. You want to get up, but as soon as you do, then you get punched in the back. You look around, but you can't see the bad guy - it's invisible. You look around carefully, then try to get up again, slowly, then BAM. Again! Get up, punch. Punch after punch. Eventually you just settle lying there while everyone else have obnoxious fun around you. They don't understand you and don't care. That's how T1D feels to me. It's all fine and dandy while you live in a bubble, but as soon as you want to live, then hypos and hypers galore. I'm someone who got stuck with this in my mid-twenties. I had it all: winning medals for the athletic team, going to the beach in the morning and coming home in the evening, hours upon hours of cycling without taking food with us. I was the fastest sprinter around and broke a long jump record in the school's history. I had the best time of my life and never thought that it would come to a screeching halt. These legs were made for running, never to stop! Exercising was my passion, my everything. Could I do it again? Probably, but the OCD sugar monitoring and dealing with "never the same" sugars on a daily basis which eventually lead to extreme numbers is as much of a mood killer as it could be, not to mention slowing me down. They say exercising is good for a diabetic, but the kind of exercise I'm used to doing is bad. How ironic.... because I always pushed my body to the limit and challenged everyone along the way. But I didn't do it to impress people. For me, that was life. I felt normal revving my heart over 140 BPM each day, and I felt unwell by not doing so. That's what I've been doing for the past 2 years - not living in fear of hypos and hypers-, and it is driving me into the verge of suicide. Often times I wish that I was born with this **** so I'd never know how amazing life was without it. Those are my honest thoughts. Living with type 1 diabetes was a double whammy for me because the depression which resulted from restrictions made me become a bitter person, who chased away all his friends and even his wife. Only my Mother stands by me. I developed a video game addiction that keeps me alive and sort of happy, and can work from home on my computer. If any of those two were taken away from me, then I'd call it quits. At least I don't drink alcohol nor do drugs, which is a good thing...</p></blockquote><p></p>
[QUOTE="Steve14, post: 1418521, member: 305713"] Living with type 1 diabetes is like lying on the ground, watching hundreds, thousands of people walk by, smiling, chatting with each other. You want to get up, but as soon as you do, then you get punched in the back. You look around, but you can't see the bad guy - it's invisible. You look around carefully, then try to get up again, slowly, then BAM. Again! Get up, punch. Punch after punch. Eventually you just settle lying there while everyone else have obnoxious fun around you. They don't understand you and don't care. That's how T1D feels to me. It's all fine and dandy while you live in a bubble, but as soon as you want to live, then hypos and hypers galore. I'm someone who got stuck with this in my mid-twenties. I had it all: winning medals for the athletic team, going to the beach in the morning and coming home in the evening, hours upon hours of cycling without taking food with us. I was the fastest sprinter around and broke a long jump record in the school's history. I had the best time of my life and never thought that it would come to a screeching halt. These legs were made for running, never to stop! Exercising was my passion, my everything. Could I do it again? Probably, but the OCD sugar monitoring and dealing with "never the same" sugars on a daily basis which eventually lead to extreme numbers is as much of a mood killer as it could be, not to mention slowing me down. They say exercising is good for a diabetic, but the kind of exercise I'm used to doing is bad. How ironic.... because I always pushed my body to the limit and challenged everyone along the way. But I didn't do it to impress people. For me, that was life. I felt normal revving my heart over 140 BPM each day, and I felt unwell by not doing so. That's what I've been doing for the past 2 years - not living in fear of hypos and hypers-, and it is driving me into the verge of suicide. Often times I wish that I was born with this **** so I'd never know how amazing life was without it. Those are my honest thoughts. Living with type 1 diabetes was a double whammy for me because the depression which resulted from restrictions made me become a bitter person, who chased away all his friends and even his wife. Only my Mother stands by me. I developed a video game addiction that keeps me alive and sort of happy, and can work from home on my computer. If any of those two were taken away from me, then I'd call it quits. At least I don't drink alcohol nor do drugs, which is a good thing... [/QUOTE]
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