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samantha13

samantha13

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I'm having a pretty bad day and it's not even lunch yet! I just spend my days recently obsessing over how I'll never get control of my diabetes. I start my new job on mon and am so nervous I feel like a child not a grown woman. I am constantly bursting into tears for no reason. I just can't get on top of things. I have been on citalopram in the past but I'm desperate not to go back on them as I feel I wuld b letting my partner and my family down. I feel I'm in a real slump that I just can't get out of so I comfort eat sending my bs sky high and so the vicious cycle continues. I suppose I don't really have a question here I just felt the need to vent


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hi, sorry your not on top form :( could you not go for a nice walk or jump in the car and do something unusual, something to get yourself out of your current mind set, go to the nearest sandy beach and stand in the water complaining its bloody cold, go to the shops and buy something nice for yourself that really cant afford maybe :) when i feel the need to comfort eat, i look on the net at a recipe that looks too good to be healthy but is then go to the shop buy all the stuff it needs the cook/bake it, then comfort eat that :)

sorry not much help, best of luck with the new job :thumbup:
 
and if we never had bad days/weeks we wouldnt be able to appreciate the good ones :)
 
Nice reply from Andy.
I used to comfort eat. That's what got me to 6 stones excess weight.
The weight didn't bother me but the complications did. I've begun to take control and lose weight. I find low carb a challenge in a good way, it's an interesting new way to look at food.

In what way do you find it hard to control your diabetes? I'm sure there will be some suggestions if you ask for help.

I think it's normal to be stressed about a new job.

I hope your evening is better than the start of the day. What have you got planned for tomorrow?

Cara
 
Hi cara. I was diagnosed 3years ago and for about the first year I had great control and hba1c of 7.5. I was then a victim of rape and unfortunately lost all my self esteem and worth. I gave up trying to take control of anything and went into a deep depression for approx 10months. Then I started I new job and tried somewhat to get my life back together. Unfortunatly this job was a nightmare and after working 12hr shifts with mayb only a 15min break I wuld come home and stuff my face with anything i could get my hands on to block out the feelings and stress. I just wuldnt check my bs as I didn't want to see the numbers.

I quit that job as it was detrimental to my health and starting my new job on mon. I have an incredibly supportive partner and mother but I feel such guilt that I'm not better controlled after 3years.



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Oh Samantha,

How awful. Massive hug! I think you have every right to have let things go.

I never checked my levels, had my head totally in the sand. Didn't care I was over weight. It was only when I felt awful that I woke up.

I couldn't change what I did before but I made a new start.

Your new job could be the start of a new phase for you too. If you did well before you could do it again! Sounds like your partner and mother would help. Come on. Fresh start from now!

Cara :D
 
Good! That is the attitude.


I deal with things moment by moment. If I have a healthy meal and no snacking then it's great but I don't kid myself that I will be that 'good' all day. Sometimes I am. Sometimes not.


Keep in touch and see if we can get your levels where you want them
 
Samantha
Knowing you need help is the 1st step, and needing medication isn't a failure, just as we need medication for our diabetes some of us need help with the chemical balances in our brains. Did you ever get counselling after your rape? Talking therapies can help too. Don't give up, keep passing the open window.


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Cara I think that wuld make a diff if I culd learn to take things moment by moment as I worry and fret too much about things I have no control over in the future. Thanks for that

Lessci I did receive counselling following the incident. It helped for a while until I culdnt afford any more sessions. I kno I need to talk more instead of covering up my feelings with eating and mistreating my body with my poor control.

Tomorrow is a new day which I will aim to b positive and take moment by moment. Thank u for taking the time to offer your advice. It really is much appreciated xx


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It seems to be only food that I can control moment by moment and I try to think that just because I eat one 'bad' thing I try not to let that mean my whole day will go wrong food wise.
I started so many diets and gave up after my first mistake.

I have had a massive temper outburst at my husband and children this morning and normally I would go and scoff something but I decided to clean out a kitchen cupboard and took my temper out on making the place look like it was ransacked. SIGH

Now I'm at the computer because I cant' face putting it all back and everyone is avoiding me in case I throw something.

:evil:

Oh well, it''ll blow over......

I hope your day has got off to a better start than mine.

Cara
 
Oh cara am sorry to hear that I have gotten out of the right side of bed for once and feeling quite positive today. I have researched counsellors in my local area and plan to speak to my gp tomo about goin back on citalopram.

Taking Andys advice why don't u try a walk. Or taking urself off to a quiet place with a good book or magazine. I hope today continues to brighten up for us both xx


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