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Lauraann

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I am sitting here feeling so sorry for myself and its all my own fault :(
I have been type 2 for nearly 10 years, I am on metformin and sitagliptin. This time last year I was doing so well, lost over a stone, blood sugars well controlled, exercising regularly but now it has all gone pear shaped, I keep putting off my hospital appointment as I know my hba1c levels are going to be too high and I will probably have to go on insulin, the thing is that I can control my diabetes with the medication, diet and exercise but gor some reason I cant stick to it, I have a very rebellious stubborn streak and it prevents me from always looking after myself, since christmas I just havent been able to get back on track and keep saying 'I will start looking after myself next week' but I never do. I now find myself heavier than last year and I have been eating rubbish, chocolates, cakes etc everything I shouldnt have, I know what to do but I just can't stick to it, I feel so weak, it gets to the point where I feel like I don't care about myself so just carry on, I worry constantly about going blind and other complications but even this does not stop me.
Well today after looking at myself in the mirror and burting in tears I have decided to take control, I have no one to speak to in my family as they dont understand, I am 45 and married with kids so I need to sort myself out. I thought I would write in here, not for sympathy but in the hope that others feel like I do sometimes and can help, I have done it before and I am hoping its not too late to get back in control but I have lost my motivation and have forgotten what I used to eat as I have been eating badly for so long.
Can anybody tell me the best type of bread to eat as I need to seriously cut down my carb intake, I have actually done an hour workout this morning and I am going shopping soon, I just need to keep of the chocolate as I am seriously addicted to it and it is my downfall as I have been eating it instead of meals :shock:
I am my own worse enemy and I hope my coming on here again will help me as it did a year ago.
Sorry for going on, am crying again as I feel such a failure :cry:
Laura
 
Good morning lauraann

Firstly welcome back and well done for biting the bullet as it were.

You've done it before you can do it again

First piece of advice is log on here daily, you will get encouragement, advice, told off :D , but unstinting support.

Forget what went on before, today is day 1. Make a note of your readings 2 hours after food and what you eat.

You know what foods to avoid I guess? Not just the sugary ones but the carby ones as well.

No-one can make you take care of yourself but owning what you can influence will make a BIG difference.

Take it one day at a time, don't think about weight loss just getting those BG numbers down. the weight loss will follow.

Keep asking questions and keep us all posted.

Mary x
 
Hi Lauraann. ((((((((HUGS))))))) I can only imagine how you must be feeling. Nothing worse than being demoralised and feeling deflated. So now, the only way is up. Get back to basics, forget what is the best bread. IMHO ANY bread is not a good thing, I gave up bread totally a while ago but now manage a small slice once in a while.

Read and digest the information that Daisy posts here mainly to newbies it may be of use. Use it as a way to get yourself back on track. Don't rush into anything but reducing those carbs is a sure fire way to start the ball rolling again!

Hope that has been of some little help and chin up. :)
 
You need to give yourself a reason to change. I constantly remind myself that every DAY i don't control my sugar levels is another contribution towards losing my feet or eyesight. Hate to be cruel, but to me it's that important and I do need to remind myself. I think along the lines of being allergic to chocolate and pastry etc; if I had a nut allergy, I wouldn't have a single nut, so I think like that.
In terms of bread, a lot of us find Burgen soya and linseed bread (sainsburys and tescos, probably other supermarkets too) is about the best. Low carb, and low GI. Even then, we limit ourselves to 1 or 2 slices.
Be strict for 2 days; look at your meter readings and see how good you feel. Compare that to how bad you feel now. That should help to stay away from the pleasure of chocolate. Whenever you are tempted, remember how good you felt with good meter readings compared to the SHORT period of time you'll ferel good with chocolate, and how long you feel bad after!
 
thank you for your kind words, I will come on here regularly like I used to and I dont mind people telling me off etc , its what I need, as kind words juat make me tearful again, I suppose its better that I get back up and start again rather than just carrying on the way I have and not helping myself, my diet is so restericted though as I dont like many foods so I am going to have to re-educate myself, I have my diabetic hopsital appointment in 7 weeks and I am hoping that I can see some improvements by then, as last year I was told I only needed to go every 6 months as I was doing so well
Laura
 
Come on Laura you can do it.

7 weeks is a good distance away for you to improve your HBA1c.

You just can't waste too much time testing and researching what may send your BG up. You already know I'm sure.

Do you have last years records?

Have a look on the low-carb threads on here for meal ideas.

Mary x
 
last year I cut out carbs which really worked for me, my hba1c was 6, but the highest it has been was before when I felt like this and it was 9.2 :crazy: so Im hoping that in 7 weeks I can make some improvements, and thank you David for the Thomas post, reminds me when my kids were little :)
 
Grazer said:
In terms of bread, a lot of us find Burgen soya and linseed bread (sainsburys and tescos, probably other supermarkets too) is about the best. Low carb, and low GI. Even then, we limit ourselves to 1 or 2 slices.
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I tried that stuff. Apart from the fact the odd taste was not to my liking it was still too high in carbs, enough to send my levels upwards into double figures. As for it being low GI thats as may be but it still had a detrimental effect on my bg levels just a bit later than the 2 hr test. I must be very intolerant of breads if there are a lot of you here that can tolerate this stuff. I didn't think bread was advisable if you were a low carber or is that not the case? I mainly steer clear of any bread unless it is a treat sometimes. Just shows how we have to find what works for us and not just rely on what others can do.
 
Grazer said:
You need to give yourself a reason to change. I constantly remind myself that every DAY i don't control my sugar levels is another contribution towards losing my feet or eyesight. Hate to be cruel, but to me it's that important and I do need to remind myself. I think along the lines of being allergic to chocolate and pastry etc; if I had a nut allergy, I wouldn't have a single nut, so I think like that.
In terms of bread, a lot of us find Burgen soya and linseed bread (sainsburys and tescos, probably other supermarkets too) is about the best. Low carb, and low GI. Even then, we limit ourselves to 1 or 2 slices.
Be strict for 2 days; look at your meter readings and see how good you feel. Compare that to how bad you feel now. That should help to stay away from the pleasure of chocolate. Whenever you are tempted, remember how good you felt with good meter readings compared to the SHORT period of time you'll ferel good with chocolate, and how long you feel bad after!
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Thank you, I know what you mean, when my blood sugars were controlled I looked and felt better, at the moment I feel awful, tired, no energy and depressed, I need to say to myself that eating chocolate is not worth this, it has always been my 'vice' as I dont drink or smoke and Its not fair that I cant eat what I want, which sounds selfish but I dont mean to as I know it is in my hands to take control wheras some people with other illnesses cant do that
 
Welcome back Laura.

I am certainly not going to judge you. I am sure we have all felt demoralised at some point or another and at least if one of us " tells you off " its better than someone telling off who doesnt have a clue. We do!

From what I have read about T2 managing, I see that different things work for different people. Read have a go and try for your self. Some things may work for you others may not. You will always get encouragement and sometimes just reading a thread about somone else can help either from a practical point of view or even emotionaly. I agree with Grazer saying that you need to find a reason to change and something that really means something to you.

Good luck

We are all rooting for you

Lucy. :thumbup:
 
Hi Laura,

Just read your post - I've had trouble getting a grip on this and its only just really hitting home now. I just wondered if with the chocolate cravings you might be low on Magnesium or other minerals - do you take a good multivitamin/mineral supplement?

take care,

Rachel
 
apple123 said:
Hi Laura,

Just read your post - I've had trouble getting a grip on this and its only just really hitting home now. I just wondered if with the chocolate cravings you might be low on Magnesium or other minerals - do you take a good multivitamin/mineral supplement?

take care,

Rachel
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funny you should say that as I have looked on google and am going to get some magnesium supplements today to help, do you take them :)
 
feeling despondent, reading of 10.6 this morning, did an hour aerobics and it is now 12.6, I thought exercise reduces blood sugars :(
 
Laura, dont worry too much I have read on here that high level excercise can increase BG something to do with the boby overcompensating? Others with more understanding may explain it better.

Chin up Chick!! The good thing is that you are trying!! maybe just need to get the level and type of excercise right.

Lucy.
 
its so hard to get everything right, thats why after a while of trying so hard i just give up because it feels like nothing helps :(
 
Hi Lauraann

I am in exactly the same place as you - went to see my Dr and was diagnosed with depression......

Dont know how you feel about it, but it might be worth talking to your GP about how you are feeling.

Hope that things get better for you soon - best advice I can give is take one day at a time - yesterday is gone and tomorrow isn't here yet - you only have NOW. x
 
mandydowns said:
Hi Lauraann

I am in exactly the same place as you - went to see my Dr and was diagnosed with depression......

Dont know how you feel about it, but it might be worth talking to your GP about how you are feeling.

Hope that things get better for you soon - best advice I can give is take one day at a time - yesterday is gone and tomorrow isn't here yet - you only have NOW. x
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thank you, I do have a dr's appointment tomorrow, I have suffered from depression on and off most of my life but I dont think I am depressed its just that I am finding it hard to cope with being diabetic, even after 10 years being a diabetic I havent come to terms with it, and I feel like I am the only person that feels like that and that everyone else that has it copes, which I know isnt true from reading others posts, its just a constant battle as it never goes away and interferes with everything. If we want to go out for a family meal I dont enjoy myself as I cant eat what I like and if I do rebel and eat what I want I then feel awful physically and mentally, I'm lucky my hubby is very patient as I am always angry and moody as I feel I have no control of my life and that I can never enjoy life as food plays such a big part for example birthday celebrations, christmas, going out for a day, :(
 
my daughter is t1 and we.ve had many problems in the last 18 mths. i.m stressed up to the eyeballs with janes bs. last hba1c was over 12%. however 17 days of low carbs 140g which was low for her made her 10%. . her carb addiction is so much better. cravings minimal apart from some part of the month. no chips rice and only a tiny amount of pasta as a treat. home made icecream is her saviour. no sweets or chocilate

having said all that. i.m not diabetic ang been lower carbing for a while. if i eat bread i just want more. if i eat pasta and rice im starving 1/2 hour after. i.ve never liked cakes or pastry but love the fillings the best. i have to say my carbs are low and fat ? too high as im not losing much weight.

diabetes is hell. i don.t know how you feel only you know that. but being a mum with a pre teen diabetic i can empathize. chin up!!!. good luck. x
 
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