Keep positive.....Martina are you altering basals downward with the help of your DSN?
Has your DSN written to the GP telling him to prescribe more strips? - My lovely DSN wrote to my GP telling him how many strips to supply me with each month, and I have never looked back from that moment onward. My GP now leaves my diabetes well alone, as he says he doesn't know anything about pumps, so is quite happy to keep prescribing the quantity that the DSN wants without argument or comments.
Also have you got your insulin vials changed on your prescriptions, as again my DSN was excellent at giving me the letter to take to GP who did it all immediately.
As the confidence grows, and as you see the levels balancing you will feel more positive towards the pump. We as humans, especially adults-take a while to adjust to any significant changes in our lifes, and pumps are a big change. Honestly, you will find that the extra's needed will make for long term better levels. As your confidence grows, so will the positiveness. The early weeks aren't easy....