Had a good and bad weekend

[sandymaynard]

I have had a bad weekend in some ways but in other ways it has been good!

The good,
1.Finally been able to have some adult fun with fiancée, as I have not been able to as I have not been in the mood.
2.Went out for a meal not in restaurant in car nice romantic place with fiancée and feed baby foxes from the car window.
3.Feel a little better about being able to cope with the highs and lows!

The bad...
1)A friend has lost a parent, I spent all last night there and feel really rough, I have not slept a lot and hence blood is 9.8 this morning.
2)My hay-fever is playing up something wicked.
3)My right eye has become perment blurred like my left eye. Nothing to do with diabetes.
4)Had a home made chicken salad yesterday and could not keep it down!

I have enjoyed the weekend but also had lows! I think I have a hold on the whole high and low well I think I do! I can not have salad cream or mayo as shot's up to 26. :roll:
I cant have my favorite tuna mayo salad, unless I take the mayo out, I have had a good weekend with my fiancée. Must admit it felt so normal being able to enjoy being close to him without the whole worry about this or that!
I must admit we rented a dvd and watched that he had some chocolate, I managed to swap the chocolate for carrot sticks, not the same but better for me! So I told myself! I managed to tell myself, carrot sticks are yummy,my nose will start to twitch before long like a a rabbit!
All I thought that I could no longer do I did this weekend, I thought that I had lost him, as I had not been in the mood for adult fun! I have a very high s*x drive, but since the diabetes it had somewhat slipped a bit! I know this may sound weird but it felt good to be able to have that side of it again!
I was meant to phone my mum yesterday but forgot as I know that she will nag me! I know she means well in her own way! She can eat what she wants as she adjusts her insulin dose then nags me for not being on insulin! I tried to explain type 2. But she is 75 and nearly deaf and blind! But she is not stupid!
She is just stuck in her ways bless her I would not be without her! I am worried that I may not have much time with her left and I hate the thought that she will not be there for ever! But I know that I tell her all the time that I do love her!
I know that I am having times where I feel very depressed, I have always suffered from depression since a child! Due to family etc.
Oh look at me harping on. I must sound like my mum, Oh now that is scary!
Sandy

 

[Trinkwasser]

Well there's a bit of good news hidden away in there!

I WISH you could get your medical professional to be more proactive. Especially with your eyes. But the BG may be worsening the problem.

<sigh>

 

[sandymaynard]

Hi Trinkwasser,
I have appointment on wensday afternoon to see Gp about medication!
Thing is i have been refered to acute eye specialist but there is up to a 3 month wait to be seen! This is what i find stupid!
I have had this bad eyesight getting worse for last 2 years ignored it until it made me left eye blurred!
Thought it might go away! But it never did go away! Now both eyes are getting worse now!
There is some good at the weekend managed to spend the whole friday and saturday with fiancee so that was so good! It was nice to be able to sit with him without friends popping around or calling!
I pulled out the phone cable!
I know that things have seenb really bad these past few weeks! Hopefully things will get better!

 

[Trinkwasser]

Hi Trinkwasser,
I have appointment on wensday afternoon to see Gp about medication!
Thing is i have been refered to acute eye specialist but there is up to a 3 month wait to be seen! This is what i find stupid!
I have had this bad eyesight getting worse for last 2 years ignored it until it made me left eye blurred!
Thought it might go away! But it never did go away! Now both eyes are getting worse now!

I hope they don't pull the same stunt on you that they did on mother.

She has dry AMD in one eye and got wet AMD in the other. because this was only in one eye the Rules said she must not be treated. Then they "forgot" to call her back for an appointment, by which time she had effectively gone blind in the eye. So they got to save some money. I wish I had been more insistent that she get a second opinion form a private specialist, she could probably have been "saved" with Avastin or Lucentis, but she has this terrible respect for the medical profession despite the ****** way she has been treated. Notice I didn't even mention the four hour wait in the hospital because the arrogant twerp of a consultant decided to change her appointment time without deigning to tell us. Apart from his Beemer he has a massive collection of electronic equipment from Carl Zeiss etc. so he can tell exactly and with precision why he is not going to treat his patients.

 

[sandymaynard]

I feel for you mum! That must of been bad!
I hope that i will get seen shortly if not! Then i am going to have to rethink! At night times i have 100 watt bulbs around the house to stop me bumping into the walls!
I know that i am scared stiff about this as my mum found out last week that because they had only just found out she had glaucoma like 4 months ago! That she has gone blind in her right eye no sight at all! She has lost 90% of sight in her left eye as well!
She is affraid for me! As i keep telling her i am like her a fighter! I wil get this sorted have appointment on wensday afternoon something has to be done!
It is that or if not seen with in the next 4 months i will have to go private even though i can't afford that i will be left with no choice!
The guy i saw back in feb said he would refer me to a neurolgist for my eyes, but the Mri was clear thank god!
He said that with in a year my eyesight had gone from bad to very bad! Then heard nothing since! I was told by his secertary that he is on holiday for three months! Okay for some! I hope he is enjoying his holiday!
One thing i have noticed at night times my eys pain gets worse and my right eye is now as bad as my left eye! The woman i saw who checked my eyes before i got refered said that my eyesight had gone bad! I popped back to see her the other day! She asked why i have not been seen by the specalist i said i had once a couple of months!
Then been waiting ever since my Gp has refered me back to the unit as she can see that there has been change and that the pain that i am suffering needs to be sorted right now!
As my new Gp says alot of it is to do with my age! Only being 33 well nearly 34 now! I am worried as i have noticed the everyday change that is happening! Oh look at me going on!
I am becoming my mum! Oh no...:shock: :shock:
Sandy