I received a letter in the post today advising me that it is now time for me to book my second retinopathy eye test.
So I will soon know if my mostly stringent but sometimes lax blood sugar control has payed off and reversed my retinopathy or not.
Then it occurred to me the greater significance of the letter that it is now 12 months since my diagnosis, 12 months in which so much has changed for me.
So much has happened in that relatively brief time that I barely recognize my self now.
I wonder do you feel the time since your diagnosis has changed you significantly or not I of course understand that for many it's been much longer than 12 months in fact it has for many been longer than 12 years for some.
I am sorry if this doesn't make much sense but have been having a significantly bad day today
Sorry you are having a bad day, @JohnEGreen . Hope tomorrow is better.
It is almost 12 years since my T2 diagnosis. Although still way too heavy I am considerably lighter than I was then. I have no diabetic complications, and not on diabetes meds. I exercise more, eat differently, (no longer follow the NHS recommended carbs with every meal) and am much healthier and happier than before. This is despite being 12 years older.
@Pipp I'm glad you now feel healthier and happier than before some times D can force us into making changes that we can resent but are beneficial it gave me a kick in the right direction. Though It's strange for me when actually diagnosed I had managed to accumulate retinopathy neuropathy and kydney damage so I'm hoping that after losing so much weight and making so many changes and boring the hind quarters of every one around me with my obsessiveness regarding diabetes and diet, that I can at least of got rid of one complication and if I'm able to do that I can do the same with the others.
It's one of my other conditions that is so variable that has made things bad today for me but hopefully tomorrow will be better It often is.
Take a minute to rethink. What is better now ? You are about to find out more news. It could be good. So assume that it is.
I make my second visit in Jan 17. So I know you are worried, but the worry is negative thinking. It may be good news.
I have changed over the last 15 months. Almost a new way of life. I haven't given up all the previous good things. But I have found some new ones which kind of cancel out some of the bad.
Tomorrow things may look better. Don't be down hearted.
I have been really plugging along on the weight loss and very slowly losing a pound here or a pound there, my blood glucose has come down lately and for that I am thankful. I do not weigh myself every day because my weight often fluctuates daily based on fluid balance. I got ready for a walk outside today and decided to weigh myself last minute-I had gained 7 pounds in a few days since I last weighed after having my best fasting glucose number ever this morning! I was suddenly very glum and began to think "What's the use-why even put on these hiking boots and heavy coat..." then it hit me-I had been weighing myself in shorts and a tee shirt. I took off all the winter wear and weighed again. I weighted exactly what I had weighted last week- a two pound gain from weigh in four days ago but much better than the seven pounds I thought I had gained when first weighted today. So, I had a good laugh at myself and realized that these incremental changes all seem so important in the moment and I often react emotionally before even thinking about it but in the long term "I am doing better than I was a year ago and it is due to my continuing to put my best effort forth come what may."
I think @JohnEGreen it may be the same for you as well and I hope you got a little chuckle at my silly expectations too.
