Tiger, I'm glad you took yourself to the hospital, I was extremely worried about you last night.
I can't possibly understand the awful time you have been through lately, coping with the loss of your wife and bringing up a small child must be so bl**dy difficult.
Whilst you are in hospital, ask your care team for help and advice. They are not there just to help you with your diabetes. If you haven't already sought help from bereavement counselling, I can highly recommend it for you and your son.
Read extensively around this forum, there is a huge amount of experiences and information here and some of it may give you one of those Ah Ha! moments. Post as often as you feel able. If there's one thing we are good at, it's offering our help, support and unsolicited advice!
Be kind to yourself and question EVERYTHING about your care. Don't let others make decisions for you. Wishing you a speedy recovery and a Christmas filled with laughter for you and your son.
wiflib