Is it just me or does it feel as though we've had our lives put through the ringer coz of this [word removed] up disease, i'm 21 and fed up of eatin an worryin about my nxt meal, i love being spontanious but sometimes its hard to do coz u gota think oh ive got to eat somethin in a few hours. Sometimes i just think were on borrowed time lol, id love to travel and by that i mean, just stop typing rite now and go no lookin back, no regrets live life free do wat u want, no boundaries! I love mixin with people and find makin friends easy enough and love partying, i can drink like the best of them and i DO! but i just isnt enough. It winds me up to see people my age do [ word removed ] all with their lives, theres a world out there and all they've got to do is see it, maybe my view is too much but idont think so. I've been deeling with my diabetes now for 18yrs and i hate it more than anything. I don't do blood tests they [ word removed ] me off sumut rotten nobody knows my body better than i do i go off how i feel and im really healthy, i should be dead after drug and alcohol abuse but im NOT, i'm healthier than my friends and all i can say bout the drugs is that its just another experience for me! Looking back at the words ive written i guess you could say ive tried to rebel against my diabetes by abusin myself but its not the answer. Maybe its a simple case of a simple [ words removed ] from mistakes from the previous life lol. Be interesting to hear how any of u feel bout your diabetes?