I feel defeated

[CharlaHall]

It's been a while since I wrote in here, I found out the other day that I found a UTI and a yeast infection.

It's just my luck that something like this would happen , luckily my husband has been with me every step of the way and trying to cheer me up, which has been helpful.

But I feel embarrassed ,hurt, and guilty... I blame myself that this happened, for not keeping my sugers in control. I know I shouldn't blame myself for this to happen, but I do Severely.

Idk what to do.... as we all know, nobody knows what it's like to fight this every day except us. Every time I feel like I'm doing good and I'm finally in control, I get the horrible gosh awful slap in the face, and everything goes down in the gutter again .

So I'm asking for any kind of advice or encouragement. Does it ever get easier, or are we doomed to this cycle over and over again till we die?


Because I'm tired...

 

[Antje77]

But I feel embarrassed ,hurt, and guilty... I blame myself that this happened, for not keeping my sugers in control. I know I shouldn't blame myself for this to happen, but I do Severely.

You already know you shouldn't be embarrassed and guilty for struggling with diabetes, but maybe it helps to hear it said by someone else.
So Not Your Fault.

Diabetes is a hard condition to live with, not only physically dealing with it but very much mentally as well.
Not always having the mental room to do your best physically is very common. Don't forget we have lives to live as well as dealing with diabetes, it's very easy to get a bit burnt out by this. Diabetes burn out is a very common thing.

Every time I feel like I'm doing good and I'm finally in control, I get the horrible gosh awful slap in the face, and everything goes down in the gutter again

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So I'm asking for any kind of advice or encouragement.

Would you like to tell us a bit more on where and when you struggle?
We may be able to share some practical things that worked for us.

Does it ever get easier, or are we doomed to this cycle over and over again till we die?


Because I'm tired...

Depends. For some it isn't that big of a deal, for some they never find a way to deal with it, for many it's a bit of an on and off thing how they feel about and deal with diabetes, and many people find things get easier when they get a bit older.
I notice you're 20 years old.
I was diagnosed at 39, so I thankfully didn't have to go through puberty with diabetes.
But I did go through puberty, which wasn't easy at all, and it definitely hadn't ended when I was 20. My life and emotions got a lot more stable in the years following being 20, and I hope you'll find the same.

 

[athletic]

Keep busy
Try occupy your mind with hobbies.