Its going to be one of those days AGAIN

Woke up this morning sugars at 25 feel like death warmed up, got my one box of blood strips last Tuesday and only got 2 left. So already feeling **** and as I cant afford to buy any this time already gone over the over draft 9 times this month just for basics food bills etc wow this recession times are kicking in, sure il be getting a lot more od charges this month. couple strips to last me all day and night worrying is an understatement. Just hope tomorrow I can get my strips a day early looks like il be begging again. The atos medical services sent me a letter for a review, nice iam not working wont go into every detail il just say feel like **** and would struggle at the minute in employment, ive had to tick yes to most of the questions like can a pick a penny up of the floor or do a complex task like operate a washing machine wow so think in there eyes ready to got back to work, which would also mean the small amount I get now would be even less equals more stress...so yea definitely think mental problems and diabetes are linked, so much for doing something with the family today, il just be staying in keep eating regular and hope my sugars don't go any higher or crash.....so yea its gona be one of them days with worry anf probably 101 anxiety attacks. But keep plugging along see if tomorrow brings something different.

Hi yes I am type 1 been so for nearly 23 years, as stated on previous posts I am allowed one box a week had my last box early on Tuesday and ran out again, never used to test at all really years ago but that was when I could recognise hypos etc easy. Controls gona bit up and down and like to test regular to know where my sugars are at. Years back when I didn't test so much got 8 boxes a time but with the costs etc etc allowed one box a week any more they say that's my choice, problem is a lot of diabetics can easily manage on 4/6 times a day which is great for them. For me even if my sugars don't vastly improve with testing 7/10 times a day it makes me feel comfortable knowing what my sugars are at at any given time and it gives me confidence and peace of mind, iam in a sort of limbo land, as I buy my own, never really go to see the doctors because I think most of them are **** anyway, and keep myself out of hospital there not really bothered they just say same things all the time. Spoken to my consultant he says up to the GP, I was thinking about boycotting all my check ups in protest.. they are quite happy for me to struggle paying for stuff, but they want me to have all my check ups to tick there boxes so it looks good on them. Cancelled my eye screening test so no doubt they will be in contact with me soon. Even tried PALS to sort something out, I feel like a fooking kid running to the chemist every single week for medication that I need is ongoing. A big problem for me is a lot of diabetics can say testing 5/6 times a day is MORE than enough and all that does is reinforce that the GPs think there right..When they are not. They wouldn't restrict there family medication, already had a warning for kicking off at last surgery, trying to put people under more stress. like I said its one of those days

And one more thing id like to add the problem with this country as a whole, is the selfishness of it, as long as people are doing ok, and not with just the diabetes side of things they sort of keep out of things fence sitting as it were, The simple fact is id find it hard for any diabetic that tests a lot less than me to understand where iam coming from, ie quote if I can manage testing 5 times a day then so should he, that type of attitude but the stark fact is every diabetic is different and I find the only ones in a similar situation to me maybe understand where iam coming from. I see people selling diabetic stuff on ebay and even at bootsales absolutely crazy. Or order a lot of things that they don't need or use, sure it runs into millions of wasted perscriptions per year. Think they need to start addressing that if they want to save money. I can only say and do so much but as before started raising my voice slightly, just to get told any more of it and youl be removed from the surgery.. feels like being help at arms length while being slapped around the face lol